Friday, April 30, 2004
I believe for every drop of rain that falls
a flower grows
And i believe that somewhere in the darkest night
a candle glows
I believe for everyone who goes astray
Someone will come to show the way
Yes i believe, oh i believe
I believe above the storm
the smallest prayer will still be heard
I believe that someone
in the great somewhere hears every word
Every time i hear a newborn baby cry
Or touch a leaf or see the sky
Then i know why i believe
okay. first things first.
iloveteresaloads!
yes yes. thanks dear for the choc ! (:
was a pretty good day today.
hyper the whole day long ! (:
started the day with science.
stayed in the class.
then we had history.
ms keh is darn funny !
i'm so glad she's my teacher.
at least i start to actually like history.
thn was clit !
limfangteng didn't come.
free period ! whee !
played with nat and wanyin and jan.
ended up drawing stuff on our arms.
after recess we had english.
ms rockey invited us to her wedding ! (:
she's so darn nice and funny.
me : so we're gonna see you kiss ?
class : hahahahas. yay!
ms rockey : yes. must time me okay ?
HAHAS. okay. funny.
then was ipw.
free period again.
yiwei and i were playing around.
had this 'chatroom' thingy on the board.
filled the whole board with chinese words.
it was rather stupid but quite funny.
took pics of it ! with qin's camera !
hopefully i'll get to upload it soon.
had training.
ran one round for warmup only.
the rest ran 3.
cos i wasn't feeling too well.
had training.
was pretty relaxed.
did skills first.
coach said i improved ALOT. yayee ! (:
thn played games.
thats all. pretty slack aye ?
practiced our song thn cabbed home.
cooked my own dinner again !
yummy yummy. (:
might be going dwn to delta on sunday.
cos meixian and lorraine's playing for SRC.
only they're old enough. 14.
unfair ? maybe. ahwells.
i was telling nat that day.
bout how i think i'm back to my old self.
the way i look at things.
and the way i treat people and things.
its so... like my old self ?
i kinda like it. yet i don't.
okay. i'm contradicting myself.
Thursday, April 29, 2004
If a picture paints a thousand words
Then why can't i paint you
The words would never show
The you i've come to know
If a face could launch a thousand ships
Then where am i to go
There's no one home but you
You're all that's left me to
And when my love for life
Is running dry
You come and pour
Yourself on me
If a man could be two places at one time
I'd be with you
Tomorrow and today
Beside you all the way
If the world should stop revolving
Spinning slowly down to die
I'd spend the end with you
When the world was through
Then one by one
The stars would all go out
Then you and i
Would simply fly away!
i like this song ! (:
was playing it on the piano.
and the lyrics pretty nice too !
and if anyone was wondering.
NO. it ain't for anyone.
by now i guess anyone can tell.
i'm super hyper today !!! (:
hm. i wonder why.
on account i'm a sick girl.
yes yes. i didn't run my 2.4km !
natalie, jiening and angelique didn't either.
tinghui stopped halfway.
like surprise surprise ?
so me, nat, jiening and angelique helped out.
took timings and positions and laps blah.
i class did really really well !
everyone is at least a C.
except maybe one. depends on her age.
well done two puritians ! (:
so nat and i are taking our run next week.
hopefully. i'll recover by then.
i should. if i ain't too greedy.
my target is a 12mins?
okay. thats pretty slow for many people.
but for me... its a goal. (:
today's assembly is pretty interesting !
djs from 88.2FM came !
they gave out free cds !!!
with signatures on it.
dingting was supposed to pick one.
cos she spontaneously ran up to play a game.
she picked .... guofucheng!
she almost cried. poor dear.
others picked pple like energy, cindy wang ... etc.
and with signatures ! lucky people ! (:
and they gave out lotsa stabilo highlighters.
they talked really well and were funny too !
djs are jus so cool ! (:'
went to amk central aft skool.
ate mos with teresa, meixian and jingyu.
went home after that.
slacked around. nothing much.
there's training tomms !
hopefully i can train.
cos seeing the others train...
i'm darn tempted !
things seem to change between us. for what reason i don't know. all i wish is we can put everything aside and be good friends like we have been all this while.
another tragedy happened today.
a construction site collapsed.
29 in hospital. 1 or 2 in critical condition.
2 died. and 3 or 4 are said to be missing.
that is the statistics for now.
hopefully the numbers won't increase.
and i had a tummyache today.
i think its the bad otak i ate.
why do collapses seem to fall with bad food.
so coincidental ?
i hope there won't be anymore accidents.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
I am on my way, yeahhhh
Rain won't catch you and the wind won't blow
Where you're blowing no one knows it
It's all right now
Clouds are forming in the neon sky
You wonder how, you wonder why
I, I am on my way
If we knew the end what we started all
See the pride before the falling
It's over now
You can’t break up what you can't break down
Life can sometimes spin you around
And I am on my way, I am on my way
'cause my priority is no more you and me
The world will always turn beneath our feet, yeah
My philosophy is overtaking me
There's nothing left to say
There's nothing left to see
was on the computer the whole time last night.
was jus plain lazy to blog.
yesterday was jus a normal day.
but today was a better day ! (:
had morning jog today.
felt so faint and queasy.
so jogged at a real slow pace.
thn had some lecture by mslow.
it didn't even make much sense to me.
anyways. went back to class.
aft hcl was home economics !
did smoothie and creamy mushroom soup !
orange smoothie wasn't too good.
but the soup was... pretty alright.
had recess. was quite a fun recess lah !
thn had elit.
msnair is jus super sarcastic. funny !
had maths. some puzzle thingy.
didn't finish it though. 'twas tough.
thn had science. new topic. atoms !
chemistry is interesting yet boring.
and needless to say, SUPER difficult.
so many things to memorise and understand !
had training after skool.
i didn't train. was feeling sick.
mrs tan was chasing me home.
cos she said i looked really sick ?
but stayed anyways.
finished up the whole ipw model.
thn walked around the skool with shihui !
we had alot of shoe-thingys.
was darn fun and funny ! hahas.
played all the way till 6.
thn sent her out.
went home with hockey mates.
took taxi cos there was lighting and it was raining.
cooked my own dinner ! (:
porridge + egg + tawainese sausages.
okay. pathetic i know.
but for the first time for porridge.
it was just nice. timing was great.
and all of it was really yummy ! (:
good news !
mid-year reviews are cancelled !
instead we gotta do assignments at home.
and all stuff has to be taken dwn on our own.
from stupid and troublesome epebble again.
but history, art and home econs are still on.
darn
jeanette ! hey ! i'm pretty sure there's sth going on. even if you're not willing to say. tab and i WILL find out. hahas. hopefully my brother doesn't see this. andandAND. feel honoured my brother sent you home. he hasn't done such a sweet hing for a girl ever ? and since you got such power over him, tell him to treat his sister better. hahas. ahwells. takkaire sweetie ! (:
tab ! work together ! we can do it ! (:
Monday, April 26, 2004
Dreams are for dreamers
Who somehow lost their way
Once you find the secret
There's no need to be afraid
And tell the bad dreams to just go away
Dreams are like rainbows
Just follow where they lead
In your dreams you found the lock
In your prayers you'll find the key
Dreams can be magic
If the truth is what you seek
Open up your heart
And you'll be forever free
When you dream
reached home rather early today i guess.
wanted to do ipw project with yiwei.
but all cos of stupid mrtay.
i don't get his problem.
all he has to do is sit in his airconditioned room.
not that we're asking him to do our project.
and he doesn't allow.
giving the reason that he wants to go home.
i couldn't stand him and still can't.
we have to hand in our project by this friday.
and cos of mrtay we might not meet the dateline.
and we're gonna be SO dead.
so went with wanyin, xiaojia and jenny.
went to amk central for pizzahut! (:
was a rather cheap meal!
4bucks per person.
and its rather filling. yummilicious!
had english compo CA today.
was a personal recount.
i did "an angry occasion".
i wrote bout the december incident.
yes. i wrote a true personal recount.
well. ms rockey doesn't have to know that.
and neither does anyone.
so the story is private and confidential.
got back the story i wrote on friday.
i think there's a mistake?
cos i got 19/20.
thats almost full marks!
only comment she gave was to be more descriptive.
but i was really tired lazy and in a hurry.
ohwells. hopefully it ain't a mistake.
english lit test tomms.
history on thurday.
higher chinese next wk.
science the wk after that.
and thn its the mid-year review.
there's no hcl paper for midyear! (:
Sunday, April 25, 2004
I was ready to take a chance,
I found myself a new romance.
Then you call that same old night,
Always change my mind.
Just when i thought it was over, you come back
And i'm hung up on your love again.
Just when i thought i was free, you come back.
Now i'm hung up on your love again.
Just as i was doing good,
You come back, just to prove you could.
Things will always be the same,
With me the victim of the game.
had training ytd.
thn went to amk central.
with rui meixian and siewmin.
siewmin and i went to rui's house.
i went off after a while.
phone went officially beserk.
can't be used at all.
so got a new phone.
its the exact same thing as jan's and my bro.
cos they said if above 300bucks.
i gotta pay for it myself.
wanted the other model.
but it was out of stock.
so i settled for this i guess...
went to church this morning.
feeling terrible.
coughed none stop. throat hurts.
after class, went for mass with rachel.
thn went with teresa to j8 after that.
came home !
jenny wanyin and xiaojia needed stationary.
so walked to kfc jus to give them.
jus had piano.
school again tomms.
time is zooming past.
the mid-years are coming.
not to mention the NAPFA fitness test.
i want a gold !
but because of my sucky sit-and-reach.
it has become an obstacle.
ahwells. 6rounds this wk. great.
Friday, April 23, 2004
This is my free will
This is my song
I'm telliing you boy
This is so wrong
You can't go on like this
Playing this game
'cause all it will bring
Is hurt and pain
Give me strength god
Give me faith
'cause i will need you now
A twist of fate
I can't thik straight
When i'm walking out that door
I'm not coming back no more
A twist of fate
It is too late
I don't care what you will do
'cause i'm not
Coming back to you
A twist of fate
Turn on the the big red light
'cause here i come
Gonna tell the world
He's the greatest scum
When you defied my love
I told my heart
That if i fall again
I'll leave this part
Give me....
Are you lonesome?
Look at your past
What did you do to make it last?
It's the way, i wanna be
I know that you'll be missing me
You'll be missing me
ahhhhh! met the cutest boy! (:
he's jus so darn cute lah.
teresa thinks so too!
if only we could see him again.
we were like going all crazy and all?
okok. i sound so... despo.
but seriously.
he's jus darn cute.
rui and meixian kinda agree too!
ahhhhh! wanna see him again!
if fate allows... (: -winkks-
hm. skool today was quite okay.
clit was good. for once.
no scolding and it was pretty interesting!
ms rockey came late for lessons.
cos she was returning frm badminton hall.
lotsa stuff happened in her absence.
like how the 2purity bubble was formed! (:
took pics of it. its super nice !!!
a huge perfect bubble.
with words saying "sec two purity"
it broke, sadly ; unfortunately.
with a horrific accident with the fan.
its super funny sight though. hahas.
wrote a compo and all for the rest of the period.
supposed to go for physical.
but it poured so heavily.
it was impossible even to do indoors.
so had this team-talk instead.
differences were pointed out.
hope things will take a turn for the better.
and that cdiv04 will be united as one !
went to macs to pig out after that.
laughed alot with teresa rui and meixian.
alot of corny stuff took place.
thn went home together.
where i met.... him. -winks-
ahhhhhhhhhh! okay. i'm madd. (:
training early tomms.
meeting pqs at 7plus in macs.
training's at 8.
no more beauty saturday sleeps anymore. ):
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else?
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think?
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me?
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
woke up feeling terrible this morning.
all hot within, sorethroat and runny nose.
mum didn't want me to go to school.
but i wanted to.
so in the end she wrote a letter.
jus to excuse me from pe.
and there was 6rounds trial!
i really wanted to run...
need to train up.
next wk is actual 2.4km run already!
our class kinda pissed mrstan off during pe.
cos many didn't run.
and many stopped halfway through.
all thanx to our dearest xinjin! (:
who made the first move in calming mrstan dwn.
played mini tennis!
played doubles. so fun!
teamed with amelia.
against amy and yiwei. hahas.
today's assembly was pretty boring?
it was e sec 4 debate finals.
i couldn't even hear them to begin with.
went with rui, teresa, meixian and jingyu to macs.
thn to the playground.
in hope of meeting our mayflower FRIENDS.
but they weren't there.
played the swings for awhile.
thn walked to rui's house with pokehh and mei.
did the video and all.
went home at 6plus?
and it started to rain on the way.
was drenched from tip to toe.
came home and showered immediately.
started cooking up sth for my own dinner.
ended up with a pathetic meal.
mushroom soup, egg, sausages and luncheon meat.
realised there wasn't any bread. ):
thn dad bought fried carrot cake for me.
no training tomms. only physical.
i'm gonna do my 6rounds trial.
still feeling kinda giddy now.
bleargh.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Well i hope that i don't fall in love with you
'cause falling in love just makes me blue,
Well the music plays and you display your heart for me to see,
I had a beer and now i hear you calling out for me
And i hope that i don't fall in love with you.
history test is postponed. AGAIN! -grins-
gives me much more time to actually study.
its postponed by a week.
so its next thursday.
didn't have morning jog this morning!
for those classes that went for the NE trip.
cos they wanted to do a survey and all.
and talk to us.
thn aft recess skipped lessons. AGAIN.
cos the MOH came to see us.
gave us forms to fill up.
missed the eilt test cos of that. (:
had home econs today!
cooked fried porkchops.
was yummilicious! deliciaso! (:
while i was devouring it during recess
a grp of thai visitors jus came in.
i got a HUGE shock k.
started taking photos?
thn they left.
started playing chess with lorraine.
thn another group came by.
one guy started teaching me thai.
like err. ERR. okay.
its pretty cool i guess.
he taught me hello, goodbye, iloveyou and blah.
can't remember some of them though.
thn they left and we continued playing.
played two games in total.
which i MUST proclaim :
I CHECKMATE LORRAINE BOTH TIMES! (:
hahas. okok. getting kinda ego.
ahwells.
had training.
today wasn't that hot or sunny.
so i guess it was okay lah.
supposed to go for camp tomms.
hahas. but... whoopeedee!
backed out with rui. (:
i'm in a total lost.
not sure what to do.
i don't wanna hurt anyone.
but yet again.
i doubt i'm ready to act.
argh. i hate such sticky situations.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high
There's a land that i heard of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true
Someday i'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
And way above the chimney tops
Is where you'll find me
today is a disastrous day.
but a pretty happy one for me?
one HUGE tragedy.
the caving in of the nicoll highway and MRT site.
which so sadly took away a life.
a foreigner if i'm not mistaken.
till now, at least four are still missing.
and four are in the hospital.
jus hope it stays this way.
no more casualties.
and there was a blackout too.
lasted for about 20mins i think.
wonder whats wrong. hm.
thn the sec2 epidemic. sort of.
the classes which went for the NE trip ytd.
more than half of each suffered frm diarrhoea.
most were sent home.
suspected to be food poisoning.
history test was postponed! (:
didn't have much lessons either.
only afew pple didn't suffer.
one of them is me.
teachers say i have a strong stomach.
and mrfoo even called me a garbage bin.
like whatever lah. hm.
i hope all those affected by either
may soon recover and be healthy again! (:
i was busier than ever today.
was sent EVERYWHERE today.
cos i was the only healthy monitor?
ran around the school.
even out of the school.
jus to take forms,send people home and collate stuff for the class and teachers.
haiz. it pays to be healthy suddenly.
ohwells. it was okay lah.
i guess some of them were really really pale.
only 7 out of 33 danced today.
cos some went home.
and the rest had tummyaches.
practically didn't have any lessons today.
went to j8 after school to buy stuff.
with jingyu, lorraine, rui and meixian.
seriously had alot of fun? hahas.
spent so much.
brought fifty and left with almost nothing.
but at least i settled 5 people's presents.
history test is on thurday.
guess there's more time to study.
but i can't seem to get anything into my head.
better try cramming more! bleargh.
Monday, April 19, 2004
it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word you can light up the dark
try as i may i can never explain
what i hear when you don't say a thing
the smile on your face
lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes
saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand
says you'll catch me wherever i fall
you say it best, when you say nothing at all
all day long i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near
you drown out the crowd
try as they may they can never defy
what's been said between your heart and mine
cheered up ALOT after last night.
went off the comp and wanted to study.
ended up crying myself silly?
thn started talking to daniel GAF thong.
bro msged me. whn he was jus outside.
told me to cheer up and comforting me and stuff.
was really kinda touched?
thanks bro! `iloveyouuu! (:
went to skool.
was much brighter?
in fact. super hyper.
almost fell asleep during lessons.
did the darn science quiz halfway.
and decided to more or less tikam.
was really shagged.
guess its cos i slept pretty late last night.
but i liked today's recess.
was jus super crappy lah. whee!
went for heritage tour.
me, xjin, jan, dior, kelly and shuxiang joined 2hope.
felt pretty extra.
but was okae lah.
walked around in the scorching sun.
was given food to eat. yummilicious!
it was REALLY good.
never enjoyed malay food this much.
only thing was we had to eat with our right hands.
had some difficulties lah.
but was fun. i guess. pretty challenging.
reached skool at 5plus.
stayed in e canteen to study.
studied with shihui.
and some hilarious stuff happened.
and now she owes me a bottled-drink! (:
thn went back with rui and meixian.
history test tomms.
and i haven't even studied.
yet i'm wasting time blogging.
great! :(
think i'll mug tonight.
at least TRY my best to.
sheesh.
thanks everyone for your concern. (:
Sunday, April 18, 2004
If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent
Yeah.... Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave now I 'm wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me
thats it.
i jus wanna cry.
jus wanna let those tears roll.
i wanna thank afew people.
who were/are there for me.
especially now. this period of time.
janice. gwen. kate. christine.
iloveyouguys! (:
without you all.
i dunno what or where i'll be now...
thank you.
went to church this morning.
went especially early.
i sat at the minipark near by.
all by myself cos i needed some peace and quiet.
to think all the recent events thru.
it really calmed me down. (:
thn i went to meet kris.
talked things out with her and rachel.
thanks guys! (:
went for class.
i suppose today's class was... really good.
the bible passage striked me and all.
peace be with you.
thats all i needed to hear at that time.
went for mass.
a little girl made my day.
did a good deed too!
cos i gave her my last sweet.
she was really cute and stuff!
walked home with christine.
talked again.
came home and did my work.
stupid heritage tour tomms.
and 3chapts for history on tuesday.
i'm trying so hard to digest whatever i read.
i'm only done with 1 1/2 chapts.
someone help me!!!
darn. i dun get life.
first its going oh-so-well.
then everything jus goes haywire.
all of a sudden without any warning.
especially when your friends turn out not to be...
i guess thats the biggest blow for me.
Saturday, April 17, 2004
In a little while from now
If i'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top i will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to who
What its like when your love shatters
We might as well go home
As i did on my own
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and oh so gay
Looking forward to well wouldn't do
The role i was about to play
But as if to knock me down
My reality came around
And without so much, as a mere touch
Put me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally
It seems to me that there are more hearts
Broken in the world that can't be mended
Left unattended
What do we do? do we even care?
It's who we are
It's where we're going
And it's where we've been
Friday, April 16, 2004
Sorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
and so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.
Don't know how many times I said
I'm gonna live without you,
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
but there's something,
baby you need to know.
That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live,
the air that I breathe.
Cariño mio, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste the purest of pain.
had a chem pop quiz today.
failed it. duhh.
3/9? mrskwek said its alright.
think almost everyone failed?
hahas. she says we learn from here.
cos she didn't really touch on that topic.
limfangteng made more than half the class stay back for recess.
all cos we didn't listen during chinese lit.
grr. was let off late and all.
and she says e next time we dun listen it'll be almost whole recess.
damn. but its so freaking boring!!!
got back english compre.
18/25. quite okay... i suppose.
jan got highest! wowee!
great job gurl~! (:
went to cut my hair with teresa aft skool.
thn joined e rest of e pqs.
my hair's pretty short lah.
but i like it! (:
i'd better. for 10 bucks. hahas.
had training. was super hot!
coach was really pissed with us all today?
dunno lah.
thn i was pretty unsatisfied with some stuff.
all i can say is we're so insignificant in e hockey team.
tomms is sports day.
hope i wun be dwn with muscle aches.
due to today's trainings.
all e best green!
all e way! (:
Thursday, April 15, 2004
love is a many splendored thing
It's the april rose that only grows in the early spring
Love is nature's way of giving a reason to be living
The golden crown that makes a man a king
Once on a high and windy hill
In the morning mist two lovers kissed and the world stood still
Then your fingers touched my silent heart and taught it how to sing
Yes, true love's a many splendored thing
i kinda like this song?
its really.... sweet.
okay. anywaes.
today has been a great and eventful day!
had maths in the morning.
christinatan seperated ten of us to do our own learning at the back of the classroom.
sat with amy, fiona, jiening and angelique.
was really fun!
cos we could like do our own stuff. (:
thn had hcl thn pe.
had 5rds trial?
managed to keep up with yiwei and amelia.
thn yiwei dashed off at the last round.
clocked a time of 10.21mins. err.
thn had relay prac. eng lit and eng. thn assembly.
now... comes the exciting part of the day.
went with pokehh, mei, rui, teresa and lorraine to macs.
lorraine left and we went to e playgrd.
we were swinging whn this grp of mayflower pple came.
thn jus threw their bags in front of me.
thn they stared at me cos i almost hit them.
they were only left with a swing to share.
so they started flipping the swing ard and all those shit.
thn started discussing bout fighting?
rui looked at one and she said
"kan she me kan. mei kan guo ah?"
of cos nv see before lah.
i mean. who's seen such a bitch?
okay. anywaes. one started taking out a scissors.
to scare us? thn she started cutting her dead skin.
WAH. we were SO freaked out lah.
thn i wanted to puke and all.
so we left. thn they shouted...
"sngs sucks!" a couple of times.
a bunch of cowards if u ask me.
why didn't you'll tell us straight in the face.
and mus wait till we were at a distance? i wonderr...
thn we decided to jus quietly walk away.
but jingyu couldn't stand it and shouted "fuck off lah!"
thn we started saying all the god bless you and all to them. hahas.
went back to macs and started bitching. utterly hilarious.
and plotting how to 'take revenge'. in a way lah.
thn we decided to walk home and purposely walk by.
but they were gone. darn. hahas. ahwells.
they look like super guai? act tough only.
and the guys were quiet lor.
not like the girls. acting like complete lians.
note : i said ACTING. they cannot make it lah.
what an eventful day!
hope we can meet them soon again.
we'll definitely have a ball. (:
or at least some laughs.
if they wanna fight? come on.
who's scared of who.
but we might not do anything.
cos we're loving and civilised pple.
who come from st nicks.
that totally rawks!!! (:
okay. i'm crapping! ignore me.
sports day is nearing...
two more days.
i'm freaked out.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Like a candle
Burning bright
Love is glowing in your eyes
A flame to light our way
That burns brighter everyday
But now I have you
Nobody loves me like you do
Like a leaf
Upon the wind
I could find a place to land
I dream the hours away
And wonder everyday
Do dreams come true
Nobody loves me like you do
What if I never met you
Where would I be right now
Funny how life just falls in place somehow
Ooh you touched my heart in places
That I never even knew
Cuz nobody loves me like you do
Mm I was words without a tune
I was a song still unsung
Poem with no rhyme
A dancer out of time
But now there's you
Nobody loves me like you do
What if I never met you
Where would I be right now
Funny how life just falls in place somehow
Ooh you touched my heart in places
That I never even knew
Nobody loves me like you do
hey dear; happy birthday! `loveyouuuuu! (:
argh. so darn tired.
but why i'm still here blogging?
that. i don't know. err.
anywaes. i felt so accomplished last night!
i actually sat dwn at my table.
and completed ALL my homework.
slept at bout 12.
but it was all worth it.
so i can have a nice sleep tonight!
something which i REALLY need.
got back my chinese paper today.
damn. barely passed. haiz...
had maths surprise test.
think i did okae.
christinatan asked me to join maths olympiad.
i take that as a compliment i guess.
jiening got asked too.
but based on past experiences.
maths olympiad? a BIG nono.
well. at least i'm good in SOMETHING.
loved science todae!
had practical to make our poppers.
well. no one in our class succeeded?
cos we didn't think before acting. hahas.
thn jenny had to go pop hers in front of me.
knowing tht e acid and carbonate will splurt everywhere.
afew of us got it.
and i itched all over! grr.
with acid and carbonate all over my pinafore.
had to take out to wash it and all.
home econs like usual was great!!!
baked potatoes. yummilicious! (:
next wk will be fried pork chops.
can't wait! whee!
the sun is BLAZING hot okae.
training was quite alright despite the weather.
and me and rui are free frm the camp! (:
hahas. yayee! wheehoo!
dad came back frm china this morning.
bought lotsa stuff for us.
alot of ADIDAS stuff mainly.
i got a new bag and wallet.
was looking forward to jackets actually.
ahwells. all e same...
time trial for 5 rounds tomms!
ahhhh! not gonna die only lah. darn.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Guess there are times when we all need to share a little pain
And ironing out the rough spots
Is the hardest part when memories remain
And it's times like these when we all need to hear the radio
`cause from the lips of some old singer
We can share the troubles we already know
Turn them on, turn them on
Turn on those sad songs
When all hope is gone
Why don't you tune in and turn them on
They reach into your room
Just feel their gentle touch
When all hope is gone
Sad songs say so much
If someone else is suffering enough to write it down
When every single word makes sense
Then it's easier to have those songs around
The kick inside is in the line that finally gets to you
And it feels so good to hurt so bad
And suffer just enough to sing the blues
happy happy day?!
more or less i guess...
started off the day with sports day rehearsals.
stood at e competitors arena.
never stood in contingent before?
i don't care.
i'm gonna stand there next year. yes!
was really hot.
so i kinda really pity those standing out on e field.
jus sat there with mel and kate and e rest.
thn went back to class.
had maths... boring.
spent recess practising 4x100.
had dance aft recess. whee!
e moves are SUPER cool okae.
a total of 12 people slacked and skipped lor.
-shrugs- quite fun what.
thn had science. experiments again!
and yiwei is darn cute! (:
had hcl common test.
godd. it sucked.
thn jus vefore end of e test.
a mouse/rat squeezed in e backdoor under my chair.
not wanting to create a scene or anything.
i kept silent.
till it was runnin in wangjian's direction.
so i said "lao shi, you lao shu."
thn e class screamed.
and wangjian is damn corny lah.
started scaring us and stuff.
but was really funny!!! (:
couldn't find it and everyone thot i was tricking them.
thn we moved e lockers and finally found it.
brave ol' meixian freed it.
it was rather tiny but fast.
got away super quick.
so... to all st nicks pple out there.
watch out for it yeahh! dun step on e tiny creature! (:
thn went dwn to join bdiv's training. sorta.
played matches. whee!
thn took photos and videos.
went with xinyi, rui, mei and jingyu to eat silkentofu!
wahahas. okay. 'daohui'.
laughed and crapped ALOT. thn went home.
now i'm here...
about to die of boredom.
but it has been a great day! whee! (:
Monday, April 12, 2004
you and I, cannot hide
the love we feel inside,
the words we need to say.
I feel that I
have always walked alone.
but now that you're here with me,
there'll always be a place that I can go.
suddenly our destiny
has started to unfold.
when you're next to me
I can see the greatest story love has ever told.
now my life is blessed
with the love of an angel.
how can it be true?
somebody to keep the dream alive.
the dream I found in you.
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me
but when we touch,
I realise that I found my place in heaven by your side.
I could fly, when you smile.
I'd walk a thousand miles to hear you call my name.
now that I have finally found the one
who will be there for me eternally
my everlasting sun.
i uploaded some photos!
its under 'other stuff'. yeahh.
thanx teresa for e great job! (:
wonder what i'm doing here.
with hcl being one of my weakest sub.
i ain't studying but here blogging. greatttt.
and i want my marche treat!
cannot. will go mug later.
sorta studied abit jus now.
stayed back to skool to study lah.
had this long but nice and interesting talk with gwen.
haven't talked to her like that for ages.
hahas. talked and stuff.
and she thinks i'm freaky too.
cos i can read her like a book! (:
ohwells. gotta chat with her again soon.
got back maths. 33/40.
jiening got FULL marks lah.
haiz. not that good for me.
but its still an a1 i guess? ahwells.
think i'd better go study.
plus the fact my mum's chasing me off again.
but gonna leave a couple of msges...
jessalynn! hey dear! dun worry so much yeahh? and u got ALOT of things to tell me tomms. dun forget k. i'll remind u anyhow. and i'll alwaes be here for you! hakuna matata! (: `iloveya!
wanyin! my dear girl... dun worry so much bout THAT yeahh? hahas. we jus have so much in common cann. all our experiences and lives. wahahas. toes toes! rmb? muahas. okae. u takkaire dearr! `loveyouuu! (:
Sunday, April 11, 2004
You'll never know
What you've done for me
What your faith in me
Has done for my soul
And you'll never know the gift you've given me
I'll carry it with me
yeah ee yeah
Through the days ahead, I'll think of days before
You made me hope for something better
And made me reach for something more
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I'd never known before
And your love
Is the music of my heart
You were the one
Always on my side
Always standing by
Seeing me through
You were the song that always made me sing
I'm singing this for you
Everywhere I go I'll think of where I've been
And you're the one who knew me better than anyone ever will again
What you taught me
Only your love could ever teach me
You got through when no one else could reach me (baby ohhh ohhh ohhh)
'Cuz you always saw in me
All the best that I could be
It was you who set me free
maundy thursday
good friday
holy saturday
easter!
happy easter to everyone! (:
slept at bout 3 last night.
was online till bout midnight plus?
thn bro chased me off.
had a nice time on msn last night!
or should i say this morning.
courtesy of shizhen!
thanx dude! (: for laming with me! hahas.
thn tried to stay up courtesy of julius.
sorry i dozed off! but smile and be happy k! and though i might be younger than you... i'll listen yeah? hakuna matata! (:
went for mass ytd and this morning.
ytd's mass was darn long.
there were bout 8-9 readings?
but i like the candle-lit part.
was damn cool and meaningful. (:
went to church again this morning.
thn went to j8 with teresa.
had lunch at longjohns.
took neos with this new machine.
was quite nice lah.but was very funny.
we were so foreign to it.
came out almost a disaster? hahas.
walked around and talked abit.
thn mum came to fetch me home.
gonna have piano later. darn. :(
hm. seems like everyone's having alot of problems lately.
its like the peak period for troubles or sth.
be it friendship or relationship or family problems.
jus try to be happy!
dun let these troubles or people around you affect your mood.
be as happy as you can!
live life to the fullest.
ever heard this quote...?
every minute spent being angry is 60 seconds less time you have being happy!
or something along that line lah.
but anyhow. the main point is : be happy! (:
hakuna matata!
[ it means no worries
for the rest of your days.
its a trouble-free
philosphy!
hakuna matata! ]
yes. thats right.
be happy. smile! :)
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now i'm standing here
My heart's so full, i can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought i'd say
So in times when all your hope is gone
And you go through life afraid
In your heart there lies a hopeful song
That is there to guide the way
And all the hurt and all the pain
You soon will learn was not in vain
For all your prayers, they will be heard
They'll come to pass through faith
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Now you will
You will when you believe
maundy thursday
good friday
holy saturday!
easter sunday
woke up much earlier than i expected.
wanted to cook my own breakfast.
since everyone wasn't home anywaes.
thn mum called jus in time to say she's coming home already.
and that she'll be getting my lunch.
grr. no chance.
nvm. there's always a next time.
thats right.
alwaes look on e bright side of stuff! (:
thats the way to live life.
and thats the way i will live life.
hahas. okok. mad me is sounding oh-so-positive today!
hm. pretty much bored at home.
wonder if we're going to church later.
bro has some vigil thingy.
so might be going lah.
don't know yet. shall see how.
jus remembered bout the test on tuesday.
stupid hcl. darn.
i'm gonna study hard!!! -fingerscrossed-
cos if i beat a certain SOMEONE, i'll get a treat at marche. an all-i-can-eat treat.
muahahas. so mus work hard. (:
sth's wrong with blogger.
i'm typing such that i can only see one line at a time.
the space has been reduced to one line.
wonder whats up. grr.
anywaes. i wanna leave a msg specially for the depressed and troubled souls out there.
no matter what happens; there's always someone who cares for you. and alwaes look on the positive side of things. cos to every bad thing, there's alwaes sth good. bring this motto along with you ; hakuna matata! [it means no worries for the rest of your days. its a troubled-free philosophy. hakuna matata!] (:
i think rui and me are the biggest lionking fans around.
even whn doing the 'topsecretthang' we wanna use music and pictures from there. ahahas. ahwells.
okae. i'm sounding so happy! whee!
hope this lasts...!
anywaes. i so dun regret signing up for friendster.
special thanx to aaron! (:
i met this long-lost buddy!
she, me and amanda kow were like SUPER close in primary two?
thn she left the skool in pri 5.
and thn she added me in friendster.
now we're chatting on msn.
so cool right! ahhhh! (:
miss the old times... whee!
Friday, April 09, 2004
Come and go with me
Wherever i am i want you to be
Walking with your hand in mine
Feel so fine
When i'm close to you
I know what it means to want to be true
Never felt this way before
Is there more
Are you feeling the same as me honestly
Don't you think it's unreal
I'm not dealing in fairy tales
If this fails
I don't know what on earth i will do 'cause i'm
Halfway to heaven
Let's go all the way
I don't want to give it up
'cause i'm already falling in love
When we reach that place
I'm dying to see the smile on your face
I'm so sure you'll want to stay
That's okay
I have so many dreams to share
Please be there
Let me share them with you
If you're looking for happiness nothing less
Come with me, baby i'm looking too and i'm
Halfway to heaven
Let's go all the way
I don't want to give it up
'cause i'm already falling now
Halfway to heaven
Let's go all the way
I don't want to give it up
'cause i'm already falling in love
I don't want to give my life in moderation (baby no)
I'm prepared to give myself up to temptation it's time
I could use a little love and inspiration (baby now)
Come and share the joy and join the celebration
It's time
Hoping and praying that soon you'll be saying be mine
I don't want to give it up
I don't want to give it up
'cause i'm already falling in love
You're makin' all my senses come alive
maundy thursday
good friday
holy saturday
easter sunday!
have been in a rather good mood.
didn't take trial run for pe ytd.
was having a bad runny nose.
but played mini tennis.
so fun!
partnered amy though both of us aren't supposed to be doing pe?
err. hahas. whee!
went to library for eng.
thn drama studio for CIP talk.
aft that went with rui and teresa to IKEA.
ate hotdogs!
bought some stuff and had ALOT of laughs.damn funny.
thn teresa and i met kendrick and kris at bishan before going to church.
sat upstairs.
we were pretty much quiet.
thn went to j8 for dinner.
some inquiring went on. (:
thn mum fetched me home.
went for mass today with mum at sfx.
bro sat with his frens.
came home.
today's a day of fasting.
so jus ate bread for lunch.
somehow. i feel holier recently.
-shrugs- ohwells.
there's so much hw.
wonder what's up with the teachers.
it ain't exactly a LONG holiday u know.
catholics actually have to go to church and stuff.
and don't idle at home like u think.
argh. hope i can finish them.
things are better left told than found out.
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
The first step to heaven
I will take in my life
I am not afraid when
I can hold you tight
If there must be an answer
Then there must be a prayer
And you must be the angel
When you're standing there
So i lean on you, i lean on you
My life is such a statement
Of my hopes and despairs
But nothing really matters
Just as long as you're there
You love me such honesty,
You love with no gain
You speak to me so tender
And you never explain
So i lean on you, i lean on you
I dream of an island,
Of a fantasy place
Where i can go to sometimes
And nobody can trace
Well such is the nature,
The nature of love
That when we dream it
Sometimes means that we need love
So i lean on you, i lean on you
My baby she cares
It's so easy to do
My baby she tells me what to do
She always tells me the truth
My baby she cares
It's so easy to do
My baby knows what i'm gonna do
That's why i lean on you
haven't touched e comp for 2 days.
was in e SUPER champion happy mood on monday? on tuesday too.
but for some reason.
its slowly fading.
really slowly. bit by bit.
but nevertheless, fading.
i have been in the best of moods.
practically in lalaland.
jus like i always used to be.
the little laura.
but today was different.
everything's back to normal.
i hope it isn't.
because i really enjoyed the past two days.
i'm kinda like sorry today?
to the hockey girls.
for 'torturing' you guys.
but it could have been worse.
anywaes. sorry!
went for confession last night!
feel kinda cleansed and different.
went to albert ng.
thn went for dinner.
mum sent cheryl and zhizhong home.
reached home at almost 11?
there's 4rounds trial tomms.
dun wanna run.
feel so tired and not energetic.
haiz. see how lah.
special thanks to...
mrstan! for ur yummilicious pizza.
coach! for the drink.
had practical for home ed today!
i dare say amelia and my sandwiches were pretty good. yummy!
i enjoyed the tuna i made.
err. hahas. yumyum.
can't wait for next wk's home ed.
crystal khoo shi hui!
silly toot can't run for us.
ahhhhhh! ohwells.
think kate's running on our behalf.
yeahh. all e way green!
argh. running outta stuff to say.
so i guess its tata?
Saturday, April 03, 2004
I've paid my dues
Time after time
I've done my sentence
But committed no crime
And bad mistakes
I've made a few
I've had my share of sand
Kicked in my face
But i've come through
And i need to go on and on and on and on
We are the champions - my friend
And we'll keep on fighting till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
'cause we are the champions of the world
I've taken my bows
And my curtain calls
You've bought me fame and fortune
And everything that goes with it
I thank you all
But it's been no bed of roses no pleasure cruise
I consider it a challenge before the whole human race
And i ain't gonna lose
And i need to go on and on and on and on
We are the champions - my friend
And we'll keep on fighting till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
'cause we are the champions of the world
We are the champions - my friend
And we'll keep on fighting till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
'cause we are the champions
VICTORY!
p.s. i tried to get e words to be in gold but yellow was e closest i could get to it. sorry!
i would like to dedicate my entry today to all those teammates of mine.
lin ruiyin.
teresa chong.
lee jingyu.
lee meixian.
lorraine koh.
ang siewmin.
choi minfang.
abigail tan.
winnie soh.
beatrice choong.
laura tan. (me!)
all the tears, pain and sweat...
is now finally paid off.
good work to all of you!
-BEEGfathugg-
we would not have gotten what we have without anyone of you.
all of you are part of this team.
and every single one is important.
we well alwaes be 6/7aside cdivteam`2004.
nothing can change that.
and special thanx to the supporters.
mainly clarity clarissa joyce and yu'ai.
especially yu'ai.
u're SO cute okae.
hahas. thanx for being more nervous and emotional than us?
we couldn't have done it without you.
weloveyou!
and thanx to our dearest coach.
nothing would be possible without him. (:
three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for ST NICKS'
hip hip hurray!
hip hip hurray!
hip hip hurray!
lets continue to work hard.
the gold for nationals 11-aside is waiting there for us.
cum'on! work hard!
and i'm sure we can rewrite history yet again.
iloveyouallSOsomuch! (:
Friday, April 02, 2004
if somebody's askin' i've gone away
yeah somebody's packin' and gone today
the summer was lovely i enjoyed my stay
maybe i'll be back one day
sorry to hurry but i'll miss my plane
don't worry about me i'll be okay
see ya the next time, maybe i'll stop by
maybe, well i'll try
hopefully but i guess
i never cared that much
i never kept in touch
and most of all what really sucks is
everything and all of us
so and so called me yesterday
so and so tells me that so's okay
i don't know took me far away
hopefully i'll be back one day
so many places so many faces
everything changes and everything's the same as
so many places and so many faces
everything changes, yeah typical but i guess
i never cared that much
i never kept in touch
and most of all what really sucks is
everything and all of us
everything sucks
everything sucks
i never cared that much
i never kept in touch
areally sucks is
everything and all of us
so and so called me yesterday
so and so tells me that so's okay
i don't know took me far away
hopefully i'll be back one day
so many places so many faces
everything changes and everything's the same as
so many places and so many faces
everything changes, yeah typical but i guess
i never cared that much
i never kept in touch
and most of all what really sucks is
everything and all of us
i dun deserve a place in this world anymore.
no one bothers.
no one cares.
no one knows.
everyone's too lost in their own problems to bother bout others' problems.
you have problems.
and so do i.
the only reason why i even bothered considering e fact that you are depressed or sth is cos i CARE.
i was too lost in worry to do anything else.
anything else i actually NEEDED to do.
i'm SO sorry if i piss you off or irritate e hell outta you.
but i'm human too.
i have sth called FEELINGS.
why should i be in e best of moods all e time.
i ain't a machine.
i try to cheer you up whnever u're dwn.
i dun see any of you doing that.
and now what.
point fingers saying i spoil your mood?
like HELLO?!
i'm not a happy machine.
i might have been one.
but things have changed.
you have changed.
i have changed.
i'm jus treating you all e way u've been treating me.
i dun give a damn if e WHOLE world hates me.
cos i'm hating myself too.
i really am...
excuse me if this post is too crude.
but as anyone can tell.
i'm in e WORST of moods.
wendy! thanx for being there for me today! you really appeared jus when i needed someone... iloveyoudearie! (:
meixian! i dun think u'll read this anytime soon. but i jus wanna say thank you. for everything. (:
ruhrenqs! i'm SO sorry for my horrid mood today. but i really felt like crying and didn't wanna really talk. so i thought it best to maybe leave u guys to hang out for a while. sorry for everything...
