Saturday, July 31, 2004
yesterday
went to school. normal stuff.
had english CA. historical narrative.
i'm super dead.
one, i didn't get back my outline.
two, my research just disappeared.
three, i couldn't concentrate at all.
i was feeling pretty unwell.
BUT, the good/bad thing is,
i'm on of the really few people
who met the word limit. 350 words.
i decided to jus be brief bout everything.
watched the yuhua match video after school.
realised a whole lot of mistakes.
i'm determined to correct them.
as much as possible of course.
dined out then went with mum to ajc.
they had some meet-the-parents.
met some people there !
i don't think i like that jc very much.
but the teachers there seem nice at least.
and by hearing their comments for my bro,
i realised how in common we can get sometimes.
ohwells. in the genes aye?
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today
had a match with crescents at delta.
it kept raining and showering.
so we waited till bout 11 plus.
then the game finally commenced.
it was quite a tough match. tiring too.
coach says we played well.
i honestly don't think so.
at least i speak but for myself.
so the game ended with a victory of 2-0.
so we're in the semis.
and if i'm not wrong, we're top of our group.
so most likely we'll be meeting teckwhye.
thats gonna be a tough and violent game.
and i've got bout a week to polish up stuff.
had NATs training after that.
okay. i think i screwed up.
i was just so shagged. argh.
but things weren't all too bad i guess.
went for 'lunch' and bussed home.
was so tired on the darn bus.
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there's church tomms.
not sure if i'm going for cath class.
i'm quite shagged.
and still not feeling well.
see how then...
Thursday, July 29, 2004
i've fallen terribly ill.
slept at bout nine last night. heh.
so anyway. today's quite a nice day.
other than the fact that i was really drowsy.
had the international math paper thing.
i didn't do the whole last section.
within 15 mins into the test,
i was already lying down to rest.
so had a long day of lessons.
after school, went down to nyp.
watched the northland and bedok town match.
then was our match.
i'm actually really proud of our team !
cos we really showed alot of team spirit. (:
it was a really tough match.
i injured people. and vise-versa.
but we won in the end with the score of 2-0 !
one goal being a penalty shot.
by meixian ! well done. (:
i suppose we didn't play all too well.
but i felt the spirit. and the unity.
that ceased to exist in any other team.
despite the fact we weren't performing too well
with all the mistakes and stuff
we didn't quarrel.
we never did throughout this whole competition.
which is, in my opinion, commendable.
as i watch the other teams crumble with each error
i begin to realise the importance of team spirit.
hope it will last us through ! (:
cabbed down to delta for NATs after that.
played match against U21.
we beat them ! 2-1. (:
think everyone played really well.
then dahlia had some talk with us.
she announced her leaving our team.
she has been replaced by mr.pak.
she started crying. so did most of us.
its really quite saddening.
even though its only been bout 2 months,
i've sorta grown with her.
i'd wish so much she could stay with us.
at least for the rest of the year...
i'll miss you dahlia. we all will...
there's gonna be my english CA tomms.
argh. i didn't even plan to go to school.
i'm feeling so sick...
that pain in my throat is near to unbearable !
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Just want to be lonely
Don't need nobody to control me
I'm tired of all the pressure on me
But what am I going to do
I'm so confused
Sometimes I'm confused
About this thing I have for you
It makes me a little crazy
Putting me in this mood
do NOT read into the lyrics above too much.
its jus...momentarily thoughts.
so there.
so it hasn't been a great day.
with additional pressure due to SOME stuff.
the hcl test was not too bad i guess.
at least out of 8 questions, i've got bout 5 right.
and i'm confident for my whole first page.
at least i know i'm gonna pass.
now its all up to my zaoju to see if i'll do well.
so i highly doubt it...
had video-viewing and lil training after school.
started off rather light-hearted.
then when everything jus didn't go right
everyone's mood went along with it.
so we were all rather moody and stuff.
jus when i started getting confident with my hits.
everything goes back to square one. haywire.
its either flying, totally off-target blahblah.
and left with only ONE more day to quarts.
and its jus so crucial i can't afford to screw up.
where did all my self-confidence run to...
i keep thinking about alot of stuff.
worrying bout unnecessary stuff.
okay. its not unnecessary to me.
but with all this things occupying my mind
its adding on to the existing mountain-high stressload.
i know i shouldn't be thinking bout certain things.
but i jus can't help it.
its haunting me. literally.
i jus can't wait for all these to tide over.
Monday, July 26, 2004
jus back from nats training.
there's hcl test tomms.
but i decided to come online.
things didnt' all go too well today.
school in the morning.
some cheer prac for darling track.
and then amelia wasn't feeling too well.
neither was lorraine i guess.
but i was kinda freaked out and worried.
so went back to class.
chinese was great ! for once.
my group got champion for some game.
so we each got some shark jelly !
wonder why my school doesn't sell those no more.
so anyway, had boring geography.
i suppose morticia adams has realised
how we utterly detest her lesson.
literally no one paid any attention.
then watched the siling match video during recess.
ramesh didn't come so was free period.
started laming around with a few people.
FANGSI. CHANHUI. JIUJIU. blah. haha.
then had chinese enrichment.
was practically another free period.
since our class ganged up to fool the teacher.
then had one period of math.
thats my day in school.
rui, jungyu and i went for nats together.
was weights today. not too bad.
then trained home.
did something i totally regret.
guess what's done is done.
jus pray it won't get out of hand.
like i said, hcl test tomms.
i studied quite a lil. i suppose.
hopefully it pays off.
nightnight world. (:
Saturday, July 24, 2004
went down to delta today.
along with lorraine and jingyu.
to catch the combined schools match.
they were playing against csc.
mainly yuhua players. old and young.
combined schools won by four goals. (:
the first half was more exciting.
i kept talking to myself. jingyu also ! haha.
was supposed to go down to plaza sing spotlight.
to get the stuff for class deco.
'twas cancelled in the end.
almost everyone couldn't make it.
so i was alone for dinner.
dahlia made me sound utterly pathetic.
she told xinni that no one wanted to go with me.
so they sort of asked me along.
but i went off with jingyu and lorraine instead.
ate ice kachang and then went to plaza sing.
lorraine got her guitar picks and we were off home.
yet again, i didn't get a proper meal.
i haven't been getting proper meals lately.
ohwells.
jus found out the desaru trip clashes with stuff.
first, i'll miss one NATs training. ):
and then, i'll miss watching a match.
particularly combined schools against src.
church tomms.
not too excited bout it.
i'm starting to not look forward to catechism.
maybe cos its getting...boring.
or maybe its jus the people.
i don't like this feeling...
and then piano after that. shucks.
i can't wait for monday.
not school mainly.
but after school activities. (:
wanyin ; jus wanna thank you for letting me rant to you this morning. it really got most of my frustrations out. or at least i felt much better for that short period of time. and it felt great. thanks dear ! (:
Friday, July 23, 2004
happy birthday rui !
hey dear ! happy 14th birthday.
you're a year older now.
and did you get my postcard ?
you wanted foolscap. but i'm too nice.
HAHA. stay cheerful and funky yeh ! (:
;muchlove.
had a match against silingsec.
all the first 11 players weren't put to play.
coach wanted us to see the game and all.
when we go in we can't make those mistakes.
it was very frustrating to sit out there.
not to mention how nerve-wrecking.
all of us were banging things or whatsoever.
score for the first half was 0-0.
so second half we all went in.
determined to change things around.
so we scored a total of 7 goals ! (:
but i played really bad. totally screwed up.
the only things that were good,
were probably the run-dribbles and ONE hit.
halfway through coach switched me to midfield.
was kinda frustrated with myself and all.
went back to school. started hitting around.
i started to have afew blisters on my hand.
it hurt. ALOT. everytime i hit.
but i jus kept hitting and hitting and hitting.
i refused to stop. for a total of 45 minutes.
then we went home after visiting macs.
our seniors were so sweet ! (:
they wrote us a note and gave us treats.
thanks guys !
so training tomms is cancelled.
so no school training. no NATs.
don't know if its good or bad.
but combined schools are having a match.
thinking of going down to watch.
since i have nothing better to do anyway.
and maybe for some other reason. -wink-
but might be going to buy class deco.
for racial harmony cum national day celebrations.
still gotta do some dance and have food prepared.
sec twos are in charge of malay culture.
so we gotta dress up and dance the dikir berat.
hopefully we won't screw up.
jus like we did on B-u day.
last episode of the bachelor tonight.
shall see who bob chooses.
or if he decides to coward out.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
back and clean from NATs training.
i'm starting to like it. a whole lot.
it beats school training anytime okay.
maybe its the people, the coach, the place.
but i used to look forward to school trainings.
now i dread it.
there's probably a thousand over reasons why so.
i know what most would say. PANCAKE.
but sad to say, you're all wrong.
okay. i'm like talking to myself.
so i'm getting the jitters.
northland drew with yuhua.
yes. i'm getting really scared.
the oh-so-strong northland didn't beat yuhua.
and we are meeting yuhua in the quarter-finals.
not to mention crescents as well.
we've gotta play really tough and hard.
make use of tomm's match to get our stuff right.
maybe even perfect. as much as possible.
its against si ling sec tomms.
wish us luck ! (:
school today was fine !
ramesh and imran both didn't come.
so thats 4 free periods for us.
think i should go rest soon.
if i can that is.
nightnight world ! (:
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
struggling to keep my eyes open.
but for some reason, i refuse to go offline.
i shouldn't think its cos i'm waiting for anyone.
plus the fact i have tingxie tomms.
4 kewen somemore.
talking bout tests, i got back my math paper.
surprisingly enough, i passed.
even more shocking thing, its an A1 !
okay. 75.5 / 100. or you could say 34 / 45.
well. at least its still relatively good ?
its been a longlong day.
morning jog was indoors today.
then home econs. screwed up.
this is possibly the first time we screwed up.
didn't listen to instructions and jus plain forgetful.
first, we added the flour too early.
so the mixture was still too watery.
then, we baked the cake without adding the oil.
and we only realised it after a while.
so we took out and started adding the oil.
so our spongecake didn't rise.
which turned out to look more like PANCAKE. :D
note : i didn't say that. amelia did. haha.
but it still tasted pretty good i suppose. (:
next week is most probably the last practical lesson.
and its gonna be mee siam.
a dish amelia and i both don't eat. GREAT.
lessons and more lessons.
then had training.
was quite alright i suppose.
people seem to be expecting too much out of me.
the coach, the teachers, the team mates, blahblah.
i mean. i'm human too !
with only two hands, two legs and a brain.
how many things can one expect of me to do ?
like as though i haven't got enough responsibilities already.
and everyone is playing with emotions.
students,teachers and coach included.
like they aren't already tiring me out physically.
and now they wanna test my mental strength.
why do i even bother bout all these stuff. argh.
okay. now that that's out.
i really wonder how long i can last.
but finally i think i can manage my time !
a little better than before at least.
NATs training tomms again. (:
and sorry zhewei for kicking you right in your face!
but you and CLARITY attacked me first okay.
nevermind. i'll get you guys back soon.
MUAHAHA. (:
Monday, July 19, 2004
had a rather long day today.
went to school early in the morning.
as usual, stood at the field.
listening to the principal's crap.
lessons lessons lessons.
nothing much.
yayee ! i didn't fail my class test.
got 24/30.
lost my 6 marks due to one question.
better buck up on those type of sums.
maths common test tomms !
stayed in school till 4 plus.
with meixian, lorraine and vinnie.
walked out to macs for ice-cream !
then at 5 plus i went to delta.
with vinnie and lorraine.
reached there a halfhour late. oops ?
rui, jingyu and teresa had CIP.
so they were slightly later.
today was weights.
it was okay i guess.
the whole nats team thinks i like someone.
which is SO not true.
everyone started teasing me bout him.
its not true okay ! ahhhhh !
the hockey teachers are pissed with me.
VERY super duper pissed.
they are totally ignoring me and stuff.
i don't think i'm entirely at fault.
but sorry still ? not that you guys will see this.
but now i'm feeling pangs of guilt.
gotta go down to src tomms.
to submit my photos.
which means i have to go take photos tomms.
so another busy day for me again.
my neighbour ivan plays pool / billiard !
he bought this 200 over bucks cue stick.
its so cool ! haha.
ohwell. gonna rest soon.
night night world. (:
Sunday, July 18, 2004
yesterday
had training in school first.
watched the video.
then had really light training.
ms lim is really nice ! (:
she allows us to take part in the 6aside.
now its all up to mrs chan ? argh.
lunched in the canteen after that.
talked so much we lost track of time.
so had to rush a lil to delta for NATs.
i dropped my wallet at the bus stop.
in a gross puddle of yucky water.
so i couldn't use it anymore. darn.
we were still late for NATs.
so missed the warmup and stuff.
training was quite light too.
the match was quite funny actually.
stayed on with rui to watch the src match.
along with joan, xinni and vanessa.
spent most of the time talking.
but realised yuhua plays super dirty.
but src thrashed them anyhow. (:
joan is super funny ? haha. blur.
went home together after that. (minus joan)
vanessa talked through the whole bus ride !
quite marvellous actually. haha.
so walked home with xinni.
cos she was gonna visit her momma !
said something i totally regret.
actually its cos its not true ?
and i'm feeling guilty now. ohno.
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today
went for mass in the morning with kris.
met alphonsus, jaime, eugenie.
walked home after that.
christine accompanied me !
thanks dearie ! (:
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people have changed. alot too.
its as though i don't know them anymore ?
its pretty freaky.
i don't even know myself sometimes.
hm.
anyway. there's a good programme on monday.
its about self-mutilation.
i think alot of people should catch it.
its on channel 5. at 8.30.
bye, for now. (:
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
couldn't sign in to blogger yestereday.
wanted to blog though.
yesterday
was an alright day.
screwed up science test.
especially biology.
think i might even get a zero ?
i didn't know ANYTHING. zilch.
it was slightly better for chem.
but still REALLY bad.
so had a match after that.
against swiss cottage.
to think i actually looked up to them.
and they turned out ultra nasty.
and unsporting.
and jus everything un-nice.
their coach is jus the ultimate.
the most unreasonable possibly alive.
plus i quarrelled with one of the girls.
number 4. jus cos i cursed her coach.
i mean... freedom of speech ?!
plus i got a warning from the ref.
everyone said i had a really black face.
so no one dared to talk to me ?
dont' know. but i was really pissed.
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today was...alright.
not good. not bad. jus alright.
cooked siewmai ! yums.
had coach-less training.
so as usual, it was a wreck.
and darn mrs chan.
she won't send us for a competition.
jus plain unreasonable and unfair.
reasons to stupid to be listed.
NATs training tomms again.
i'm jus so tired.
and not to mention tanned.
ohwells. its fun though. (:
Monday, July 12, 2004
had a friendly with ENGLAND team today.
we beat them 3 to 0 ! (:
think i screwed up a little.
not as much as before. but still so.
i kinda think we're adapting in already.
which is good ! cos we play better.
science test tomms.
wonder what i'm doing here.
but i jus can't seem to study.
my brain's officially shut off.
chem and bio. argh.
i woke up bout 5 times last night !
about every hour from midnight.
and i even brushed my teeth.
jus pure madness. bizarre.
so the new student came today.
audrey. she's quite okay i guess.
and in class, played hangman.
MORTICIA ADAMS didn't come today. -winks-
played hangman with lorraine and xiaojia.
came up with really lame puzzles.
like 'hello' or 'helicopter' blahblah.
but had fun. (:
i wish everyday could be like today.
Friday, July 09, 2004
happy seventeenth birthday bro !
back here again ! (:
nothing much to say though.
things have been jus going...nice.
had NATs training last night.
totally screwed up the drills.
think the match was okay.
but was whacked ALOT.
all thanks to the u21 team.
had training today too.
the sun was jus scorching.
went out with mum and bro.
first to some netball match.
singapore vs papua new guinea
singapore lost.
but still two more matches left.
went to fish & co. after that for dinner.
twas' already 9.20pm.
and a yummilicious dinner. (:
then came home.
had the ipw semis today.
i think our group did fine.
but charity's one was...marvellous !
jus superb. bravo ! (:
there were germs going around today.
in my class that is.
hope everyone's feeling better.
and cheer up jan ! (:
like imran would say :
always look on the bright side of life.
i kinda like my two new teachers.
imran and ramesh.
they're both really nice.
kinda boring at times.
but nevertheless, nice ! (:
and funny too.
though my class always doesn't respond to their lame joke attempts.
which usually leave them quite disapointed.
but i cannot stand alan ho.
he jus...irks me.
he thinks he's great and macho or sth.
i jus cannot stand him. thats that.
where's mrs tan !!! argh.
training at nyp tomms.
then NATs training again after that.
busy ol' me.
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
finally back here.
after what...one week ?
suddenly it doesn't seem all that long.
the computer has been down.
and i've missed it so...
AWWWW. okay. i'm mad.
anyways. its been a busy one week.
so alot of stuff has been happening.
for one, we've played two matches.
bedok town > 6-0
regent sec > 12-0
yups. with both victories ! (:
2 more matches before quarter-finals.
so its been a nice happy week !
for what reason ? i don't know either.
maybe its cos of...PANCAKE ! :D
-stares at pok, mei, teresa and rui-
haha. okay. nah.
i've jus been pretty high lately.
so there's been lotsa trainings.
my studies are jus...rocketing down.
even faster than a plane crashing.
and the worst thing is,
there's nothing i can do bout it.
even studying doesn't seem to be working.
if i haven't already mentioned this :
i failed my history. HURRAY.
so i'm in desperate need for help.
but nothing can help. NOTHING.
what an irony. sheesh.
i had another weird dream again last night.
in fact, i've been having weird dreams.
but last night's one jus...eeks.
its scary. its freaky. its unthinkable.
it shall be kept top-secret though.
so other than the thing that matters most.
my life is just beautiful. (:
