Wednesday, September 29, 2004
i just wrote a poem.
was considering of publishing it.
but saved it as a draft first.
till i'm ready to reveal it...
mm. another normal day i guess.
i suspect i'm suffering from anaemia
in case you haven't studied home econs yet
it means a lack of iron
and makes you feel weak and tired
and even makes you look pale.
maybe i dont look pale.
but like i can anyhow... (:
but my lips have been really dry and pale.
so... i've got the symptoms !
which means i've gotta eat more iron-rich stuff.
like red meat... beef ! haha.
okay. quite crappy. but i think its true.
stayed back to join in the hcl remedial.
yeah. being extra ? haha. perhaps.
but it was a means of revision.
then was going home with jenny and xiaojia.
ate at macs first. ended up studying there.
then left at bout 5. walked home.
i guess these two days have been rather fruitful.
i'm planning to finish physics and 'the pearl' tonight.
then i'll start on chemistry and macbeth tomms.
i highly doubt i'll stick to schedule.
but at least i have a plan now ! (:
everyone's stressing me up.
they seem to have finished alot of things.
and i'm only getting started... ohwells.
jiayou everyone ! (:
-5 days more to the eoys !
Monday, September 27, 2004
somehow, i've fallen.
fourteen years of life.
thirteen, or at least twelve, happy years.
sure there were problems.
but none as stupid as those of present.
children are known to be innocent and pure.
sure, they dont know alot of things.
but at least they were happy. all the time.
they showed when they were displeased.
by crying and making a racket.
but as we grow older, things complicate.
people put on masks. why so...?
i've moved on. hopefully for the better...
-
yesterday
left the house at 6 plus in the morning.
kris came by and we went to church.
attended the 7am mass.
then we hung around before going to class.
i left class early to go meet rui.
hopped on the train and met jingyu.
then we met the rest at raffles city.
went to select a cake for dahlia.
then we went for lunch at long john's.
laughed quite abit. ivy's just hilarious.
then we went back to the competition site.
walked around, watched matches blahblah.
finally, the finals. northland won. congrats ! (:
then we had cake and stuff. nothing much.
went to peninsula plaza to look at hockey stuff.
walked back. played around.
the rest had prize presentation.
liyuan, jingyu and i continued to play.
waited for xinni to be done then went for dinner.
then finally went home. bout 9plus already.
got lectured at home.
i said my reasonings.
as usual, they made perfect sense.
so since they couldn't think of anything else to say.
i was grounded. thanks alot.
school was fine. usual stuff.
went to the library after that.
with jan, jenny and yiwei.
met gregory, dingjie and zhizhong there !
then jenny fetched me home.
nothing else...
i actually studied today.
a little on biology i suppose.
gonna read the pearl tonight.
then do my sciences tomms. i hope. (:
Saturday, September 25, 2004
hm. not much action recently i guess.
sometimes i dont even know what i'm doing.
went for the color's award this morning.
just one word : shit.
cabbed there at first with clarity.
it was quite hilarious sometimes. haha.
then after that went off with rui.
both of us walked towards the LRT line.
only to realise its not in operation yet.
so walked all the way back.
ended up cabbing to jeight.
then we went home after that.
then rushed out immediately to meet her again.
trained to orchard to meet xinni and ivy.
watched white chicks at cine today.
then trained home... nothing much.
its obvious i'm leading a planless life.
never knowing what i'm gonna do next.
i never used to live like this...
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
today's been a great day.
more problems have arose.
but at least my mask is of better quality.
if you get what i mean...
anyhow, school's been quite slacked.
or maybe i'm just not bothering.
i couldn't concentrate during lessons !
my ear started bleeding. rather profusely.
all through maths...
even my shirt got stained with blood and pus.
okay. gross i know. haha.
so i couldn't concentrate during math.
and we were going through a new chapter...
new formulaes. damn !
then during home econs...total slack.
and i heard voices during english lit !
some evil witchy laughter. freaky !
but apparently no one else heard it.
so i started getting really distracted.
eyes following book. thoughts not.
then ramesh started to say how actions speak louder than our thoughts. HM.
then he kept asking me to focus.
during art, mr foo said i was really serious.
i think he meant it as a compliment. ohwells.
went to the library after school.
along with xiaojia and jenny.
ate at amk central S-11 first.
so finished our homework and played.
then i went home with bro and gang. again.
nothing much i guess...
wanyin ;
hey SMS ! okok. firstly, we've drifted alot recently. thanks for your earstick today k ! and for...bothering so much bout my pathetically bleeding earlobe. haha. i just wanna let you know that you'll forever be my SMS ! lovemuch ! (:
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
nothing much today.
just came back from nats.
played a full match against victoria college.
played as a left back today...
screwed up line tackles.
and not to mention ALL my sweeps/hits.
but other than that, its okay.
score was 4-3. their victory.
but we fought pretty hard to the end.
the australians were REALLY nice and funky.
mingled with them after that at the reception.
then they invited us to play games with them !
played some hand games.
then went on to the pitch.
and we started with more physical running games.
they're pretty much the same lame/boring ones.
BUT. its different when playing with them.
they just make fun out of every single thing.
i like today. (:
not to the extent of loving it.
but definitely a rather good day today ! (:
Monday, September 20, 2004
things have been much better today.
maybe cos someone's abroad now.
school today. same stuff.
thought alot today...
had english compre CA. stupid.
i totally screwed it up. couldn't focus.
but at least i'm proud to say...
i'm done with my geography notes ! (:
went to the library after school with meixian.
had lunch at kfc first.
had the ultimate chicken meal !
it wasn't exactly very filling.
the stuff were all pretty pathetic.
so after that we went to the library.
met jan, danfong, michelle and gwen there !
after awhile we all went to munch food.
met zhizhong, dingjie, lydia(?), daniel there.
then jeanette and my brother came.
as usual, they were a noise-machine.
incosideration to be more precise. haha.
walked home with them after that.
i guess life's gonna be different from now on.
be it the social circle, my confidants, whatever.
particularly life at home.
i'm not looking too optimistic for once...
there's gonna be a match tomms.
undersixteen team vs victoria college
they're from england i think.
heard they're quite good. ohwells.
wish us luck then ! (:
Sunday, September 19, 2004
if this is destiny,
stop the mystery /
i've not shed a tear in ages.
but i cried buckets last night.
thanks to my wonderful family.
my whole family just rocks la.
i haven't been so clear of myself for so long.
i'm sore about everything.
i've got alot of things in life.
and i'm really grateful for them.
but i'm missing the fundamentals...
Friday, September 17, 2004
you are my breath when i have nothing left
you are my dreams making perfect all things ;
i'm finally back ?
actually i had one post abit more recently.
but for some reason it didn't appear.
so anyway, highlights of recent times :
-full of muscle aches with park's trainings
-exams are round the corner, all work untouched
-home econs prac exam was almost a flop
-came to know of more hypocrites existing in my life
-been betrayed countless times again
-representing hockey cdiv to reveive colors award
-gotta wear full investiture uniform. WITH heels.
-on the whole, still happy to be me. (:
okay more talk about meow.
we found it on a stormy day at delta.
we were walking there when we found it.
it was helpless cos it couldn't fly. or even stand.
so we tried all means of helping it.
i even sacrificed my lovely towel to keep it warm.
then its parents came. but couldn't do anything.
their nest was in the hole in the ceiling anyway.
so we brought it in, put it on the stairs at the far end.
tried to feed it an orange and finally left.
next day nordin came back with meow.
he's got alot of compassion ! i'm impressed okay.
apparently he kept it in a box the whole night.
to keep it from hungry and mean cats.
he sent a couple of us to go buy papaya for it.
while feeding it, two birds kinda attacked him.
two of which are most probably its parents.
but even so, nordin's gonna keep it.
cos the parents cant do anything anyway.
so...we'll see what happens next week ! haha.
came home pretty early today.
thought ALOT on the way home.
like how the old times were like.
when my mum would come pick me.
or specially meet me to walk me home.
and how i used to detest that.
how life was so easy and boring last time.
but... past = boring = simple + sweet.
such a simple yet meaningful equation ?
haha. okay. i sound like a psycho.
but yeah. its so true. now...?
present = interesting = political + confusing.
everything is coming to an end already.
is this how we really want it ?
are we just gonna let this one year odd fade ?
we're all getting things too far.
none of us cares. or maybe none of you care.
maybe you all think you know each other too well.
even to the extent of saying stuff
without considering the others' feelings.
it didn't use to be this way.
everything was going fine. EVERYTHING.
now? nothing is going well. NOTHING.
once, we spoke about how we were so bonded.
especially compared to others.
but i guess we all know now dont we...
or at least i do. and someone else too.
but thats not gonna make a difference.
unless we all change the way of things altogether.
or maybe we have reached the end...
the part i feared so much.
THE END.
hypocrisy ? betrayal ? bitching ?
okay. i do not deny.
that i have most probably been an offender.
of all, if not one, of the above 'crimes'.
its starting to get to me.
and its starting to get to people too.
for goodness sake, this has gotta stop.
people are getting hurt. and it ain't nice.
okay. this is a weird entry.
it sounds more like a diary entry.
ohwells. i just feel weird today.
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
okay. I'M BACK ! (:
haha. finally... after so long.
its quite impossible to update about everything
that has happened in the past days...
but its jus generally been really happy days.
got our new coach for the U-16 squad.
mr pak (korean) and mr nordin.
their...okay i guess.
but we're banned from laughing.
and then we cannot play like singaporeans.
dont know what pak wants. dong.
going out with some of the squadmates later.
going to catch a movie ! whee !
and i HAVE to mention this...
i was forced to pay $8.50
to watch afew digital snakes.
feeling pretty unwell now though.
its the throat again. and the nose.
eeks. i hate this ! ahhhh !
went for the science excursion thing ytd.
11 of us with imran.
imran was jus hilarious i tell you.
he was very 'fun'. beats other teachers.
maybe cos our generation gap ain't large.
so there were other schools there.
dunman high,tanglin sec,shuqun sec,rivervalley...
i can't stand shuqun sec !
i dont think the others can either.
the girls were so bitchy. yucks.
so we went around to three sites.
and we were supplied with ALOT of food.
haha. but i was still hungry. ohwells.
then went for dinner at jeight.
with jenny, xiaojia and fiona.
jenny and xiaojia walked me home.
all the way ! so tiring. haha.
but we talked and shouted and whatever.
i guess it kinda cleared some things up.
emotions really went wild...
think i better go start preparing for later.
there's training tonight.
hope its not gonna be too torturing...
oh. and i found my lei ! -winks-
