Wednesday, November 29, 2006
woke up and finished my perfect catch.
its alright only, considering i could watch half last night and half today.
met liyuan, supposedly on the train. though she's so silly and we had difficulty locating each other. like centre of the train is where! so well, we went down to suntec anyhow. got my shoe, i took the white one instead of the striking red/orange one. though i dont deny i really liked the latter. but well, practicality.
i saw 2 people i didnt expect to but was glad to see.
and in a row they came. hahaha.
no ten rounds for training today! yay. but we did interval runs instead. which was like some relay sprint thing for 8 rounds. to me, its a whole lot better than the ten rounds, or even twelve. then it was the game against the nats ladies.
the attacking was better today, we actually managed two short corners. but defence was horrid. i think the coaches were disappointed and i'm in such a foul mood for screwing up the game. rahh.
its not fair how everyone's versatile but i'm stuck.
prom tomorrow. should be fun. i hope.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
i think i'm getting back to my old self!
no no, not the one i was lamenting about losing just some time back, but the one i was at that time.
i mean, for this period of time i was more silent, more serious and seriously lacking of totally lame jokes. (and this is where chua xinni goes "no lor! youre still that same little girl")
which i might add to, i'm not little anymore. i watched a bloody nc-16 that day! though Lim thinks i'm 15 only. hahaha. and i totally understand why he does. (:
i like the fact that i'm not dreading u16 trainings anymore. though i wished i had watee or even fiona back, i guess i'd have to make do with the present situation. talk about total dominance. now i'm more of the minorities than ever before.
well i'd better be off packing my stuff. gonna get my shoes and perhaps some shopping with liyuan then to delta for training. stc girls wont be going for training today so i guess i'd have to take off my own shoes after training since FREAKK (with a double K, font size 3000, underlined, jokerman font) wont be there to do it for me. HA. stupid russian-speaking-like-chinese.
oh yes, and cookie and - are SO lucky.
i wish i had their luck.
oh wait, i'm always rooming with myself (:
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Sunday, November 26, 2006
remember that stinky pillow thingy that you used to love so much and couldnt imagine what life without it would be like, until your mum cant stand it no more and just throws it out when youre not home and then you whine for days till you finally adapt to your new habit in life, or rather the lack thereof of the old?
okay thats crap.
i just dont know if what i'm deciding now is the right thing.
it just kinda hit me after talking a lil with nelson and after that talking to wanting tonight, while the others were having bundles of fun in the back drop. i miss the feeling of playing the game for the game in itself. cos now, its just about the company. and that i dont wanna lose.
so anyway, i'll think abit more after bangkok and hopefully KL.
oh man i'm so busy and tired. everytime i have the thought of having a day off or time off here and there, something else just crops up. my eyes are so droopy now. but i'm hanging in there to watch she's the man later when my dad's done with his soccer match. yes, i know i'm slow, and no i'm not watching it now just cos of channing tatum whom i might add that i think is cool, but not cute. you knw, the difference.
drats. u16 training tomorrow again.
i've been counting and by far i've completed 33 official rounds around delta pitch in the past week. at the rate we're going, it wouldnt be a problem hitting 100, or maybe even 200 before we go milo. IF i go milo.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Friday, November 24, 2006
my only day off hockey so far since it begun after o's.
actually hockey was part of the day's plan. but the suuuuuper tired me couldnt get dragged out of bed so i slept on and just clicked off my alarm. until teresa's NAGGGGGINGGG calls. rahh then i finally got changed and made my way to school in the thunderous storm. god knws which stupid nerve got the better of me.
so went there and obviously training ended early cos it was near impossible to play in the rain. so went with erica and chung for lunch at pepper lunch! chung siyi is soooooo dumb. now i know the exact ways to irritate the hell out of her and make her obey my every command. muaha. then waited for pok to come and they left.
we went to paragon to get her phone and we first queued at the wrong place and then waited for ages just to get entertained. and during that waiting period, it was total chaos. its just such a 4justice thing to do - go online to sign up for our jcs in the last 10 minutes although we were given like 2days and 16hours. hahaha. joanne was calling me, reen was calling me and she was calling mrs sng and i was desperately trying to get jen's maid and blah blah. just total chaos.
so after that we caught just friends! nice nice show. my first official nc-16 at that. actually this special day was supposed to happen yesterday but cos of estee and pam who tagged along and were not of mature age, we were forbidden and settled for happy feet, which i wouldnt advise anyone to watch. its not that bad, but just not worth it.
so anyway the past week has been torturous.
lack of sleep and rest, blisters on my feet, swollen lumps near the shin, and just alot of torturour runs. killer i tell you. and its barely even the worse, i just sense it. well all this better be worth it. hopefully i get selected to go for milo and when we do, we'd better not come out last. or second last. we ought to deserve something at least as close as where we got to last year although we only trained for a week. hahaha.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
"you'll have all the time in the world to do things after o's"
thats a whole lot of bull.
i'm packed with minimal time at home tht i cant even try the scores i printed out on my dearly missed piano. i have, or rather, had so many plans. redo room, do up my music system, take my dear apple to its doc, write letter to people, and blah blah blah. just so many so many things.
but its hockey, or out, then hockey, then out.
BREATHING SPACE! and sleeping time.
i badly need.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Sunday, November 19, 2006
just back from our hockey farewell.
actually i felt it was more than a gathering rather than a farewell. which didnt exactly come as a surprise to me cos hockey's always been like this. devoid of tears and raw emotions but fun anyhow.
but i just watched the video the juniors made, and it couldnt get anymore diabetic.
firstly, to the seniors aka clarity's batch.
i'm sorry we made farewell for you guys not as good as it could have been. and clar, sorry we didnt have a video. but i miss you guys. until now. and all the times we had. but yeah, sorry!
and very importantly, to the juniors.
thank you for today. ALOT. i mean, although you guys came later than us, ate food first without waiting for us, invented treasure hunt with missing clues and with one extra misleading one (hottie? joanne? haha sizzling worhx), i still had a fun day. and most of all for the video. for the many interviews : jude was totally unnatural, i'm sorry i inteferred in mr ng's, mrs chan totally repeated all her words twice and mrs tan didnt look into the cam at all. well basically there's so many things i wanna say but its never gonna fully express how bloody touched i am. to the roof.
so,
I ALSO LOVE YOU LIKE THE SEA, SO DEEP SO DEEP,
LIKE THE MOUNTAIN, SO HIGH SO HIGH,
LIKE THE GREAT WALL OF CHINA, SO TALL SO TALL,
LIKE THE RIVER, SO VAST SO VAST.
and i'll miss you guys loads and loads too. (:
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Saturday, November 18, 2006
i think my family's funny.
i had to beg to go to johore tomorrow (which i must admit is more for the idea of shopping rather than the match) and they slammed the phone on me after finally agreeing. and i was so troubled on the way home thinking of how not to really lie and all that. then i came home and there was a frantic search for my missing passport and my parents were SO glad cos they were laughing and saying how it's god's will. but in the end they found it and so i'm off to jb soon! in like 5 hours?
today was physically draining. having reached home at around 12midnight after pigging out at cartel and watching step up, i chatted on the phone till like 3 and finally slept. and then i had to drag myself outta bed at like 7 to catch my mum before she left the house to get a key to the letterbox so i can get my invitation to my farewell which! i didnt get. so after a few moments more of the winks, i had to drag myself out again to go to jolene's house for mahjong. of course i reached there just on the dot to find everyone was still home. so i went up first. meeting times are NOT reliable. so we watched goong and played mahjong and i left for school training.
it was quite tiring and i appeared like a clown. i slipped twice, when where i ALMOST fell but didnt. and the second one i fell, funnily and badly. it was short corner runout and i was first but cos i false start and they had to replay so when jude blew the whistle to stop play, i couldnt stop in time, slipped and embarrassed myself while everyone had a bloody good laugh.
then we took our time and went for club training.
basically just played matches. it was damn tiring when i have jude always passing the ball to ivan saying "attack laura!" and reynard out to torture me by making me chase him la. at least i had ugenie to chat with.
so basically, i know i'm gonna be feeling this drained for a long time to come. so i might as well get used to. but well, its gonna be fun filled days from today on. i hope.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Monday, November 13, 2006
there's so many things i want to tell you but yet so many circumstances that prevent me from doing so. i've always trusted you and told you everything, even when - happened, i told you before telling my friends. but this time i'm sorry i'm not saying anything. its cos nothing's confirmed and cos of other reasons. but i really didnt like it when you said what you did. you dont understand, and i'll tell you soon. whenever possible.
i dont like whats happening and the way things are going. why were you once someone i revealed everything to but now you just turn things around so much. i dont knw you anymore and i dont knw if i wanna knw you either.
i felt betrayed. i still do.
we're still in this game.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Friday, November 10, 2006
four and a half papers gone.
four and a half more to go.
sounds bad. okay lets do some rephrasing :
two weeks of o's down.
one more week to go.
thats right. sound more positive.
this year has been so eventful and i know it isnt even the end. so many new strangers in my life, whether they know it or not. hahaha. so many strengthened relationships and miminal lost. not that i would deny there's none.
i've so many things i want to do after o's. i mean i'm not exactly missing out on playing and fun now so no thats something different on my list. but so many literal things. but i knw i wont have the time to do almost all of it because of the gazillion hockey trainings. i'm not even looking forward to milo cup anymore. it makes me wonder if all this is even worth it. it used to be. but the value has been lost in generations.
i miss the oldies.
and DEFINITELY the fun.
oh yes, and does anyone know the title to the song that has these lyrics in the chorus : "its been 6 months 8 days 12 hours since you've been away" ? tell me if you do okay.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Thursday, November 09, 2006
have you ever come out of a paper regretting not having studied enough?
well, me neither.
i come out regretting having studied la.
like they test the trivial-est of stuff!
and i feel so dumb. how can a bearing of 270deg give you southwest. ITS WEST for god's sake. so yes, my hopes of aceing my combined humans are very much dashed. looks like i've to go search for my joy luck.
and whats worse is there's actually pressure to do well for this paper cos just before the clock struck 2, tanshuwei walked up to my desk and said "hi laura. heard you went for hockey for a whole day." with that sadistic smile. do i really carry this face of guilt everywhere i go? at the end of the paper i was avoiding her but she still saw me and asked how it was. IT WAS BAD MISS TAN. if only i could tell you that.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Monday, November 06, 2006
i see the moon
and the moon sees me
the moon sees somebody i want to see
today was a good day of papers.
its not often, in fact it only happened once before, where i come out of the exam room feeling generally satisfied. maths was good and ss was a relief. both the topics i banged on came out and nicely, one in SBQ and one in SEQ. and for the first time in my life, i cross-refed for source base. hahaha.
i think cramping style of studying works for me. like how i was guilt stricken on saturday and somehow spurred myself on to study. and just about half hour before the paper we were told the a whole chapter was included in this theme and did some serious cramping. haha luckily it didnt even come out. so no regrets for saturday.
i peeked at a video of ivan and allison dancing contemporary in one of the later rounds and it was damn hot. but ivan koumaev is seriously a cool hiphop white boy. the next time i catch them dancing will be in two weeks and my o's would have long finished.
after o's there's so many things.
of cos immediately after chem, will be catching STEP UP with the justicians i think. and then it'll be a daily hockey thing all over again. not to forget UWC!!!! but we'll be so rusty i think playing would even be a problem. but last time together as a full team so it'll be bundles of joyyyy. and i wanna redo my room. like new colours and maybe new furniture. haha we'll see. and there's overseas trip! like bangkok, which i once dreaded, but i suddenly am glad i'm going. and i'm looking forward to it. (:
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Sunday, November 05, 2006
chestnuts roasting on a winter fire
my shuffling itunes' playing christmas songs!
i cant wait for it to come. just cantttt!
okay, it used to be my most dreaded festival in the year. i mean to cry during such a joyous occasion is just pitiful. but well, i remember last christmas was beautiful and i believe this year's is gonna be even better.
i think i havent cramped so much social studies in my life, considering i never thought there was actually anything to cramp since its a common-sensical sub. but well, i feel guilt-stricken having spent my whole day at padang yesterday. watching and agonising over not being able to play my favourite src 4aside carnival. rahh. i went home so red that my dad thought i was drunk. maybe thats cos he didnt knw where i went all day anyway. whoops.
but yesterday was fun i guess. (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUNGGGGG.
this is our favourite photo since audrey never gave us a chance to take one with our faces seen.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABBBBBBYYYYY.
you guys bully me upside down all day long.
and its true, the more you yearn for something and try to make it happen, it doesnt. but when you least expect it, it does. experienced and proven. so who says we should fight to make things happen.
well, back to emergency cramping of SS.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Saturday, November 04, 2006
YUL'S SO COOL.
no no, not the princess hours second prince guy, but the survivor genius who found the immunity idol with only 2 clues and like really really fast. he's gonna win cooks island i think. i believe.
and that billy's so so funny. what love at first sight with candyce when she's cuddling up to adam at night? delusional guy. i'm glad he's out! and he left with saying "if there were a black metal tribe i'd fit in much better" but why would heavy metal dudes expose themselves to building fire and tents in the outdoors? right.
spent a day home today. okay i confess, lazy bones. even terence and sherman's bugging couldnt get me out. or liyuan's offer to come near my place. plus the rain was helping me. haha. but i didnt completely waste the day. started off with SHARK TALE! funny stuff. then a whole hour of the nanny. even funnier stuff. and i revised Amaths! i realise i only can sit at one place and do maths but i can sit still doing other subjects.
so tomorrow's not gonna be a productive day. i knw i'm supposed to study at the club but i'm pretty sure i'll end up playing quite a bit. BUT, i promise to try my best and study. cos i screwed up king henry and unseen and am not prepared to screw up my combined humanities cos i need it. rahhh.
why cant i be an artsy-brainer?
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
