Thursday, August 31, 2006
its been a good day today. (:
rained practically since morning till evening.
i like such cool weathers; not pouring but windy and drizzly.
teacher's day celebrations werent all that good i guess.
after giving all the gifts, the hockers were due for a lunch date!
before that teresa and i had the YOSHI TALK.
after much time spent deciding, we went to NYDC at heeren to lunch. ate yummy food. caught up on each other's lives through truth or dare. okay not too updating but its better thn nothing. thn we played the finger-reaction game thingy. haha and that was it. went our separate ways soon after.
i met liyuan and we sat at mos playing bingo. HAH.
met up with limin and sya and headed to delta!
training was a killer. okay actually just the warmup.
30mins of sprinting cum jogging.
its like we jogged 4 rounds, sprinted 1 round, jogged 2, sprinted another... till we completed 14 rounds! amazing. every sprint had to be under 70secs? okay but i'm proud of myself. i survived. and most of the time within the time limits. but my muscles are seriously tired.
after that was just set play. nothing much.
went for club training after tht with meixian.
we didnt wanna play so just hit around.
oh yar, last night was pretty fun too.
spent the day at dan's house doing up teachers day gifts.
and i loved her dog, so cute! haha and tame.
and we're highly interesting people. really. (:
confusion, and only more confusion
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
prelims tomorrow. dang.
i think it finally hit me today. and jen too? ha.
i was jus stoning and thinking about english paper tomorrow and starting to feel kinda nervous. and thn i wondered to myself wht if tomorrow was like physics or chem paper. i'm not ready! no no! i dont even think the one week holiday's enough. a little too late for regrets huh. i just saw it coming. but did nothing to prevent it. AH JOY LUCK CLUB. haha waverly jong? okay i'm not even sure.
teachers are seriously amazingly sweet.
first they make us feel all guilty with their disappointments.
thn now they come back and double, triple, infinitise the guilt!
i love you teachers.
i'm sorry i couldnt be better.
we've officially had last lessons with them all.
and its till the last second we realise, teachers do care.
ever woke up wondering if the things that happened were a dream or reality? haha i did this morning and it felt weird la. i remember waking up in the middle of the night picking up the phonecall but the content of the few minute long chat is so hilarious i seriously wondered if it all were true.
anyway i think i ought to be a psychic one day. HAHAHA.
oh so marissa too, BELIEVE ME.
situations have proven me right over and over again.
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Monday, August 28, 2006
okay i'm happier today! (:
i look forward to school, cos there's jen and xinjin and the whole of justice.
i look forward to after school cos i can pop by the pitch.
i look forward to online-ing cos there's marissa too and our P&C. ha.
north zone colours this year isnt gonna be good.
it used to be the most happening zone last year.
but this year everyone else is like in the south!
there's only fatin and the 4 of us over here :(
well at least this year i'll be sitting with ah chung. ha.
pau's leaving tomorrow.
and i havent even seen her yet!
and i didnt get a reply from her either.
PAULINE LIM! phone networks dont like us.
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
i'm seriously thankful for my one and only fish head, okay you're not even gonna read this but thank you for cheering me up and being there. (:
i wasted the whole of today away.
had chemistry plans initially, BUT i didnt knw where to start so i never got started. okay dumb excuse but studying's just dumb. so well, i jus did nothing the whole day today.
i knew i loved you before i met you
i think i dreamed you into life
okay something random, i always wondered if those lyrics actually made any sense. but somehow, it just might. okay damn, i'm seriously fantasising too much. haha. too many weird dreams recently. nice and sweet but never gonna come true. ha. ahwell.
prelims are 3 days away.
amazing how time zooms.
well barely 70 days to total freedom! (:
and i'm considering going for like novena next week or something, cos my brother claims its really good and worth going? like outdoor style and all. maybe i should give it a shot considering its the holidays. so calling all churchies reading this, if there's even any, anyone wanna go? rachel? terence? anyone?
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
okay depression period. shucks.
third teacher expressed her disappointment in me.
second teacher cried in disgust of us. dang.
jus whn i think i have finally woken up to reality that its time to get to work and study something lest i fail my prelims and probably my o's, i have my dad's lack of faith in me even making it to jc. jus the thing i need.
and whn i thought i could count on friends,
i realised, what friends?
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
back from training.
today's a sad sad day.
i hate the way dahlia reads me like a book.
i guess i'm jus on the swing. again.
somehow things have changed so much.
people changed, attitude changed, and i guess my dream has to as well. and after last year there was this motivation to actually make it somewhere this year. but i guess its not gonna happen. limin! i miss the past. :(
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
back from training not long ago.
pathetic attendance today. just 6 girls?
4 stc, 1 sng and 1 northland. sure sure, we wont shame ourselves at milo cup. ha ahwell. sprints gonna start next month, for now its long-D first. but well, no runs today! and training was pretty alright la.
and ms weizhen, I'M SORRY! i really didnt mean for your red nose.
dinner after tht with limin, yuan, xinni and harjeet.
yipeee, its been such a long time.
did you knw tht there's now a shop'n'save next to the market?
amazing how things have changed la.
and i so miss the food. yum yum.
i realise i kinda always fall for -!
haha cant help it! too cool too good. (:
i finally got an outstanding F9. for chem.
like 30 out of a 100? dang.
and the second teacher expressing her disappointment in me.
perhaps its time to wake up! prelims are already knocking.
LAURA TAN, STUDY LA.
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Monday, August 21, 2006
today was a nice day. tiring but nice.
reached school super early! like second in class?
and i was there with jasmine cos we had the same reason, brothers who needed to go to camp so the sisters suffer along. haha.
then we went down for handover ceremony.
sports captains were seriously messy. ha.
but well, we're finally rid of official duties.
my tablemates and i went a lil berserk.
we made these race track thingy across our tables.
we havent made figurines but we've got our finish lines! ha.
thn geog mock was crazy.
SO many questions within such a short time. but well.
thn night studied after that.
with jen, dan, chew and reen! (:
okay blogger failed me so images cant be uploaded.
so we studied till we found out we were fooled.
there's NO physics test tomorrow. argh.
so home-d!
and i had a nice trip home.
went off with rui and we talked like old times.
its like within the short journey home we were trying to squeeze out all the thoughts we had suppressed all this time and we never stayed a millisecond quiet. haha. she's still the same and perhaps we are. yup still bitchy, definitely. ha.
well well, clique lunch next thursday?
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
combined gathering yesterday was good.
it wasnt really about the fun, more the catching up?
so there was tennis, pool, food and jus all talk. ha.
oh yeah, and treasure hunt tht ended before it started. haha.
and mystery sotongs which i hardly got to eat.
tennis was hilarious, we were really quite funny to watch.
pool was even worse, total jokes. hahahaha.
we should have a showdown soon.
well, caught up with joyene! tht silly court jester.
and security guards jus spoil fun. seriously. ahwell.
liyuan and hanwei dropped by my house for awhile.
for no reason at all.
we wanted to go crabbing, but it was closed already.
i'm quite disappointed i had to miss club dinner though.
especially whn i heard i was supposed to give a speech? haha nah la.
these two events jus had to clash.
one, where we were probably meeting as a team for the last time.
another, i jus missed everything.
today was jus church and home and studies later? maybe.
yeah, issues of insecurity truly evident.
i couldnt stand seeing you guys today. really.
whatever happened to the notes you wrote.
yea, so i'm at fault too.
but still, that sight is jus emotionally piercing.
i only mattered whn there was no one else?
yeah i said i'll be there for you,
but it hell doesnt work this way.
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Friday, August 18, 2006
okay bintan photos.
those from my cammie la.
CLICK
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ugly sleeper, uhkm no i mean MANDA made my night.
haha she's hilarious la. i'm glad we were grouped together (:
she misses me so much i knw.
ay i miss you like i miss shitting too! HA.
i dont like this picture. cos i look fugly.
but when i'm awake, i'll give her the privilege of being prettier than me la. since i'm like so much more beautiful than her when we sleep. HA. i seriously miss those special moments in bintan.
i still feel we look more like we're in china or something.
anyhow, missed school today.
after training i had this panic streak that i was down with some funny disease, be it chicken pox, shingles, measles or even HIV or whatever la. cos i had red spots at the area below my neck and one on my foot, and today, a couple on my neck too. looks like some love bite or something.
wanted to make sure i dont go round spreading it, so stayed home with the thoughts of wanting to do some work at home. BUT of course, nothing was down. i woke up near afternoon already. did some refiling of my notes and, yeah thats about it.
haha busy day tomorrow?
wanted to go ubin with huiyi and gang.
but i decided against it la, too rush a plan.
so there's the combineds gathering tomorrow and dropping by the club after that i think. but now we have this chicken wing crisis, but yusheng's satay will save the day! ha.
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
for the first time in days, i came home and did not have the least bit of worry of studying anything at all. its only Amaths integration test tomorrow! ok these topical tests jus give us no thrill no more. haha.
but well, i'd better get to trying some of those questions and revise physics! cos i'll be taking a full physics paper on friday and i'm going for training till late again tomorrow.
horrific geog test this morning? haha.
its like my answers for all questions were almost similar.
thn lessons lessons lessons.
and full maths paper one after school.
one of the highlights today was lunch.
me, jen, pauline and xinjin jus had a good laughing time.
we were talking bout all the funny people around.
like reen with her absurd observations with teachers
and the stagnant arrangements of some people and blah.
it was damn funny, you knw how pauline is with her hilarious impersonations.
and thn we came up with this weird notion.
why dont gays go with lesbians?
guys wanting to be girls date girls wanting to be guys.
haha it like doesnt defy the norm then.
okay we're weird i know. haha.
anyway, english o's tomorrow!
so far the topics havent been too bad.
i hope my day's not gonna be the start.
and for some reason, i'm not quite nervous.
i wouldnt say i'm confident, jus no feeling?
well wish me luck anyhow. (:
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i've found something that i've lost for jus a little too long.
hockey.
i remember the days whn i had almost 7 trainings within a week and practically lived on hockey. people always questioned whether i get sick of it, and usually it was negative. but within the course of this year, it became a yes. i dreaded it. perhaps it became more than jus a sport, something more political and definitely bitchy.
went for u16 nats training today.
it was a good couple of hours.
where everything else didnt matter, not studies, not you or you or you or you or me. haha its jus a whole lot of nonsense and we werent judged on everything we did. everyone's jus bundles of joy, even if training's a bore, some people can jus make it so enjoyable. (:
i need these daily doses of training.
even if it means i have to go alone.
cos i wont be once i'm there.
i feel like i'm living your dream
[/edit] OH I FORGOT.
i bumped into a handsome boy today!
he was like cycling and fell and skidded!
thn sya and i helped him up and everything.
and thn i was like "okay bye!"
thn he said "bye!!!" HAHA. ahhh.
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
had yummy yummy buffet at sheraton towers today!
i think i'm such an unorderly person.
started with seafood then dimsum then western and then jap. haha and then it was desserts all the way! jus chocolate overload. souffle thn some caramel banana thingy thn cheesecake and tarts and ahhh!
then came home and did an hour of work.
wanted to sleep for one hour but my stupid alarm didnt quite work so i slept all the way to 7pm? haha woke up then it was dinner and jus slacked all the way till now. i think i'm disgusting. ha.
its gonna be a tough week ahead.
like start the days with tests and end it with more tests.
and its all full papers.
but i havent dont any revision.
i'm still learning! oh the regrets.
not to forget nats u16 training starts this week.
yeah, i should stop hockey and concentrate.
but as yuan said "aiya, you'll surely go for training la."
i would say that girl knws me pretty well. ha.
but i like proving people wrong sometimes.
ohwell, we'll see as the week progresses la.
i came to a sudden realisation why we're in the state we are now. you were never there for me but always expected me to be there for you. you're never gonna read this i knw, but it doesnt matter. cos you never bothered and i never will expect you to.
SYAFIZAH.
okay i mentioned you as you requested. HAA.
i hope you're feeling MUCH better okay?
i knw i'm useless at consoling people la.
but na! i give you a :D
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
teresa chong is seriously hilarious.
White Picket Fence says: (11:05:39 PM)
yoohoo!
and then she sends this
White Picket Fence says: (11:09:53 PM)
oh. haha. wish you good luck & a prosperous year ahead
HA. silly girl.
and i've so much to tell you la!
okay soon soon. we should have a yoshi talk.
and now its my turn.
i feel accomplished!
i finished 2 compres today and did a weensy bit of maths.
of cos i think i spent more time sleeping and watching tv.
but hey, its a good start aint it?
should do more work tomorrow.
sometimes we make it
sometimes we break it
and we get one step closer each and every day
figure it out on the way
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Friday, August 11, 2006
school today was alright.
it finally hit me that i'm running out of time.
i've SO many things to revise and SO many mock papers coming up with prelims in less than 20 days and with o'levels barely 80 days away. i think its a lil too late to wake up but better late than never. right?
pizza treat from jude today!
and played a game against the sec 3s.
i'm SO accident prone.
got hit on ankle yesterday and today? a swollen knee courtesy of juniors who till now never bother listening to our "dont hit or sweep! our pitch is so small!" but well, its alright la. haha.
and over and over again, disappointment hits.
attempted to talk to the cdiv, but yeah. the usual. inattentive juniors who dont give a hoot to what i say which always leaves me wondering why i even bother saying anything. OH YES. cos teachers bug me about their attitudes.
ms lim and mrs tan talked to me after training today. ms lim like pulled my ears three times la! haa, but she so agrees to what i say and i so agree to hers. we all wanna do something about the sad hockey state but its useless. so we're back to the "i'll close down hockey!" situation.
my dearest juniors :
there's so many things i wanna say to you guys but its useless cos you guys never seem to wanna listen. i have supposedly stepped down but i just cant leave things as it is. i think the team bondness thing is much better already, but its not jus about within the team but the team's effects on other people, both seniors and teachers. teachers dont scold you for fun. and i'm actually thankful for the lectures from ms lim. i dont wanna give up on you guys so please dont make us alright?
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
gentlemen dont exist anymore.
human beings are weird. i'm weird.
somehow we do things to allow stuff to turn out one way only to realise it really will turn out that one way and then we're not quite happy. puzzling creatures.
studied for afew hours with liyuan today.
okay i jus spent it pulling my hair over math.
i've got so much work to do tonight la! rahh.
perhaps i should drop everything else and actually start focusing more on my studies. but nats training jus has to start now doesnt it. i think i'll still go la. starting the mugging trend does not mean i'll neglect my friends, cos i dont do things i hate people doing to me.
go laura! (:
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
BINTAN
okay this is a lil outdated.
feeling's not quite there anymore.
funny, i didnt quite like this trip as compared to the 4 others i had before. even sentosa was more spirited in a way. but well, i still enjoyed this trip i guess. being seniors and all, it was good. haha. and hopefully hockey has sorted stuff out.
on the last day all the sec 4s took the second ferry back so we had a good talk with ms lim with the extra time we had. and i realised every cca had bout the same problem as us and sec 4s seemed to have same issues with juniors and all. but well, i enjoyed this talk. ms lim like saved us biscuits and murugu specially for us!
i just love being the oldest. (:
NON-BINTAN
national day celebrations yesterday.
it was quite funny la.
with vanessa as a smurfy model, the crazy singing, and the chocs we got for coming in third in our classroom deco! i'm still ever so proud of FOUR JARSTEEST.
our motto : dont have to win, just try!
thn they jus had to make us stay back to take the 13 chapter killer physics test. everyone was like discussing a lil cos we really didnt knw how to do anything! haha.
went to macs and slacked around with meixian and pok. havent done that in ages. difference now is we were actually doing work while stoning. hah and pok always bullies me and says stuff whn i'm not paying attention la! stupid girl.
nats training after that.
friendly with u14 boys.
we got thrashed, but it was something-1!
we scored one through penalty corner!
meaning we have 100% penalty corner conversion!
but the boys seriously didnt care if our heads were still intact at the end of the game. they were like reversing and hitting and sweeping and everything mercilessly la! even during their short corners.
playing with the on thursday again.
fireworks after that!
with yusheng, ziya, hanwei and pok.
nothing fantastic really. haha.
but it was a nice time la.
so for the first time in 4 years, i'm spending national day at home. i didn't expect this to happen till at least we were in jc. but i guess times change and we went off in our different paths way before we even had an excuse of separation.
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
this post was left for happy memories of bintan. but i'll have to postpone that. seemingly when everything seems to be going just fine, something horrible happens.
well horrible is too extreme maybe.
but its un-understandable.
there's so many things i wanna tell so many people.
but words jus dont seem to come out right.
even the people i thought would understand dont.
but i dont expect anyone to understand.
afterall, i dont.
school tomorrow.
short week but still tests upon tests.
if sec four life is supposed to be about all work and more work, then why do all the messy stuff only fully bloom now.
questions, questions, questions.
but as always, no answers.
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
bintan's tomorrow.
so far everything's pretty disappointing.
of cos the teacher's disappointment is one dread we'll be dragging with us. thn its the groupings, the sleeping arrangements.
sports girls are all mixed around.
and i'm not happy one bit.
but as all bad things go,
i'll get over it.
i just hope it'll be fun la.
things will be fun.
and perhaps my group will be fun too.
i'll be missing 4nations!
but i'll be catching the last day at least.
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