Sunday, February 25, 2007
i'm making so many decisions in my life that i dont even realise the consequences of them all. i dont even see how everything is gonna change and how i'm gonna lose things i've treasured so much, whether i saw it before or not.
maybe i've seen too much.
i hate being in the dark about things but now that i'm exposed to the truth and the little bits that have been hidden all this while, i cant not make those decisions as much as i know i might probably regret it.
i guess i've gotta learn to say goodbye then.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Thursday, February 22, 2007
my puppy snores. hahaha funny stuff.
and within the next hour, its sister is coming over.
so if its in the genes, i wont be getting more than 40minutes of sleep tonight. one will be intrigued by its new surroundings, and the other by the new addition.
cny was fine. big losses this year in gambling though.
but i've always loved a catchup with the cousins.
school's been fine.
funny how different people are affected by different things.
you know what, why bother elaborating.
and i think i caught siew hwee's sore throat.
i definitely feel it coming.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Saturday, February 17, 2007
this goes out to chew, xinjin, lorraine and even the twins and well basically anyone who's interested to know ;
i made my decision due to the circumstance i'm in and the situation i face. i dont wanna post it here so when i meet up with you guys i'll explain and elaborate more to you all. but i want you to know that till this very moment, i wish i could turn things around and be free to choose again. but who knew that what was once my helpline became what is hindering me. so i'm sorry friends :(
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the past week has been pretty fun.
i think the class is bonding more, which makes things even sadder and more difficult when time comes for us to part, where people leave and others come.
yesterday i missed cny celebrations in vj cos i went back to st nicks for award ceremony. celebrations in sng werent as vibrant as before, where's the sing-along!
so after that i went all the way to the east to join in the last 30minutes of SLV at the old folks home. it seemed to me that our class was having more fun entertaining themselves with karaoke. haha.
with the exception of afew, we went to the airport to eat and hangout. we just talked and talked and talked. DO YOU KNOW, there's more than one universe out there? more than one solar system? and there's gonna be a new 'earth'? hahaha.
then joseph, razeen, junyi, simin and i went to town. joseph has a total lack of a sense of balance that he had to rely on a petite old malay lady to not fall. hahaha you should have been there. what a sight. so anyway i spotted my phone! haha i'm gonna get it mannsssss.
today was total unfortunate and scary.
i almost lost someone dear and precious :(
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Monday, February 12, 2007
last week before we got our results, i sort of knew what school was gonna be like. non-existant. for me at least. but now that results are out and all, i wonder what its gonna be like tomorrow.
well i'm desperate to hang out with my classmates, whom kenneth has just informed me are gonna pon lectures and all tomorrow. and of course i'm caught between finally settling down or playing with them.
of course this decision doesnt even come close to the one i've yet to make and have been bugged about by acquaintances, friends and parents. oh yes, how could i forget teachers.
anyhow i think i'd better be off.
school at the other end of singapore begins in about 8 hours time.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Friday, February 09, 2007
i'm torn.
square one square one.
so yeah, thanks to a few sprinklers, i doubt i need to state my results.
its like before i even had time to register reality into my mind, i had people congratulating me and it doesnt require a genius to know who did the spreading and i'm not the least bit grateful.
i remained pretty much emotionless and i couldnt really express why. till i read dan's blog and like yeah, its just like getting an A2 and crying over that pathetic miss to the distinction grade.
on another bright note, i won the Lee Poh See Foundation Sports Award. i'm just as puzzled as you as to what the hell that it, but i think there's prize money involved. so well. haha i was like trying to tell xinjin something when suddenly sabrina jumped up and mrs goh went "come up laura, i'm sure you can run much faster on the hockey pitch".
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
i cant believe how absolutely delusional i once was. no wonder i was given weird stares when i said what i did. but at that time, i really believed there was this, circle of trust? but i guess we never were that close, never will be.
now the thing i once rejected, literally, is the one thing i treasure the most.
missed school and went back to st nicks today.
yeah, the usual, i miss it like crazyyyyy.
i want the good old days back!
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Monday, February 05, 2007
Ber's killing me right now.
stupid tanbernetta. curry puff.
i cant believe how much luck she has okay!
ah anyway my face is cracking i swear.
my eyes, lips and perhaps even cheeks.
it hurts alot and especially under the sun, its as though i can move my face or there wont be one anymore.
particularly yesterday after the police game.
so today had time trial for 3.3km for PT.
i think i shouldnt take part in the inter-cca cross country really. but for some strange reason seet thinks that i just didnt do my best on purpose. water the flowers la.
after that ber, liyuan, teresa and i played a lil friendly with and against the guys. shawn and felix was in our team. i think i laughed more than i actually played la. they were really super funny!
so since i bravely went to school with limited knowledge on econs and was prepared to flunk the progress test, i was rewarded with a postponed test. i might not even go to school this wednesday. not in an attempt to miss the test but i just wanna get a day off to go back to st nicks or something.
afterall, dreadful results this friday.
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
Saturday, February 03, 2007
really really tiring past week.
its just been a whole lot of work, done and the undone mostly. its like first 3 months and they're piling us up like we're taking our midyears next week or something. okay pure exaggeration on my part.
but there's even an econs progress test next week, the week the dreadful o's results its coming out. its like whats the point! who knws if we'll even return to vj. wait let me change that, whether i'll even return there.
so crashed raffles on thursday afternoon.
okay it isnt even considered crashing since i basically went after my lessons, and after theirs. i dont even wanna hide the fact that i actually like it there. not to mention how much i miss people like xinjin, chew and even the twins! nat and noey really surprised me, not their characters which have yet to change which you can tell by knowing that the first thing i saw them doing was playing volleyball in the canteen (talk about wreckers). they've joined hockey! okay they can barely even do one same exercise for 5 minutes before getting bored.
so i went for the training anyhow. to watch.
AND, the journey home was amazing.
it was like leave there at 610 and i'm home by 620.
its NINE TIMES shorter than my current situation.
but you know how sometimes you suddenly have a change of heart but something else just pulls you right back?
yes, 07S62. you just did the job.
and of course my favourite girls.
you guys make it difficult! :(
a memory trying to find a piece of time ;
